Mystery Girl's Diaries

I just wanna say that you never know me even after reading my whole blog🤭...(felt cool😎).#OkayBye🤭😅 Hell yeah!!!!😬😑 Yeah mann!! I am okay with being normal... however they don't even remember  your existence from next day.(I include myself too...but I don't make some drama kinda thing of showering all the love .I just wish them🤗😌).yeah I defend myself coz this is my space😂🤭.   Blame your self😆🤷🏻‍♀️    

  hmmm...... basically I am so scared to do things alone, I used to depend on people for every little thing in my life.  anddd there comes a point in life where you don't want to trouble anyone and to do things on your own ....so that happened to me eventually.... I had to move from my home town for studies..and I started to learn to do things by myself.. like now I am travelling alone..I mean it is not a great thing or too long.. for me, it is still a great thing to do all myself... you know what....I went all alone and I was walking alone on the way of my veryy first day of college ... I still remember that day...before that, I was never away from home, I never stayed in a hostel....and for me, it was soo tough to balance myself in that new environment.. I still struggle to live there...but I am used to it now. (I have already written it in some post I guess). okay okay, I am taking this story somewhere else😅. to a person like me doing anything little thing alone requires t...

umm... thought-provoking right?! but I love debates and I love to argue about somethings. I was scrolling on insta and stopped at this..like for almost 1 minute I guess. what I think is none of them is right!. isn't it life is neither full of good things to focus on good nor bad. we should see the situation or problem "as it is"... how we are going to "accept it" is our choice and the choices we make depend on our experiences and perspectives.  I think we are nobody to judge someone's choice unless we really know them, then try to change them or help them..only if it's a bad choice or some kid doing something immaturely.  what funny is that I am writing here all these things like I am someone who is soo much experienced. of course, these are just my opinions, my thoughts. if I  keep all these kinds of things in mind I may go crazy someday. I wish I could share these kinds of things with human beings around me..but again people judge(this is how I see peo...

 This is the question that I ask myself mosht of the time... There are a bunch of old heads I mean ooold people. I mean people who had seen life more than I did... I thought people become wise and humble as they get old... but these people are becoming more stupid and senseless...  So.. what happened is...let's imagine there are people of almost the same age and an old guy... generally what will you expect in return a person to do... What I do... I expect the person to greet both of us in the same manner...but no... Should I say it as partiality or stupidity... Like..  should I have my own 3,4 bhk flat and 1 crore bank balance ...to that stupid someone treat me properly.. isn't the relation we have is enough...... And God have given me these two eyes and some common sense to watch this? Why I have to experience all this bullshit and it is not even worth it....no matter how much I convince myself, how much I try to ignore all these things that happen in my daily life...I e...

A feeling that everyone hates..maybe not everyone but most of us least expect from others That is something called sympathy, pity, compassion. don't do anything out of sympathy to others, at least don't let that person know, they feel like shit if they find it. (P.S: this not a suggestion..it's just what I feel). should I name it as a complex feeling, that's how people feel about and react to sympathy- complex. instead of showing sympathy or feeling pity let's help to motivate them or make them feel confident by giving them an assurance that we are there for you. don't know why I was randomly thinking about pity... seriously I don't know how to respond to someone who says that they failed an exam, or to someone who lost a person... all I know showing sympathy makes them feel more miserable. I might experience it sometime, that made an impression like this. haha...                                   ...

  we are humans we love and hate things....... hate doesn't mean hate...maybe things I don't want to hear or I like less or I don't appreciate at all or things that annoy me. if I make a list of everything that I hate that would be loong... so, for now,  I'll write things that I hate to hear, coz I am really annoyed by some things. the topmost thing that I hate to hear is what are you doing? and did you ate?😑.  I mean when people text me these kinds of things on apps like Whatsapp ,insta, etc.,...if I am doing something why would I use that app, why would I cht with them... and of course we are humans we have to eat to live, ..okay if say I didn't eat, what do they do. I am really annoyed with this kind of questions these days. don't know if I am getting short-tempered or people are becoming annoying ... the second but most important thing that I hate to hear "SUGGESTIONS"... yeah "I don't suggest someone until they ask me to do it" .. a...

Novels that I have read and reading currently I am just a beginner reading novels... but I can say I love reading. 1. the subtle art of not giving a f*ck- Mark Manson 2. the secret - Rhonda Byrne 3. how to be confident under stress 4. the power of your subconscious mind-  joseph murphy 5. her last wish- Ajay k Pandey  ( i just read that in one go) 6. I too had a love story 7. something that I never told you 8. a girl in room 105 9. revolution 2020  10.happiness hypothesis 11. the bestseller 12. alchemist 13. Mrs. funny bones 14. who will cry when you die 15. ikighai 16. Oka yogi 17. Social psychology 18. atomic habits 19. It ends with us 20 . IT starts with us 21. Surrounded by idiots 22. Maybe you should talk to someone 23. The monk who sold his Ferrari  still, some are downloaded which I haven't read yet😉

 This list has been in progress for a long time😝 .. it makes me realize how much time I have wasted..but I am not regretting it🤷‍♀️😅. let me note all the dramas that I watch and let me feel like shitt🙃....omgg really I invested soo much time in these🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ . okayy there was a time when I had nothing to do but only this😑😶 C-DRAMAS 1.put your head on my shoulders * 2.love 020* 3.go go squid 4. extraordinary you* 5.forget you remember love 6.brightest star in the sky* 7.love is deep 8.Le Coup de Foudre- i only like you 9.you are my destiny* 10.skate into love 11.my love enlighten me* 12.my girl 13.love designer 14. love equations 15. a love so beautiful 16. my girlfriend is alien* 17. youth 18. Count your lucky stars 19. Nothing but thirty 20. The king's avatar 21. About is love 22. My dear lady 23. Be with you 24. my little happiness  25. Meteor garden*** 26. Be yourself 27. Hidden love  28. The First Frost *- Are must watch I have to say k dramas are the bes...

  yeah... I am a mess of my thoughts............ normally any overthinker can say that, but a person like me, who wants to do so many things but end up thinking a lot than doing anything?! coz I am a messed-up over, thinking and overthinking.. (does it sound like a poem, it's also okay if not😂).  nothing changes by simply thinking about things right? we have up a little effort to make those things work? ...then what should I call myself for doing nothing..aarrghh... I should seriously put some effort into my ideas. I genuinely want to thank the person who made me think about myself, my thoughts, my career againn... in some situations, we all know exactly what to do to make it all okay, at such times your mind doesn't listen to our heart, neither our heart listens to mind and these 2 sit together and wait till a third person comes and says the exact same thing.  (somewhere I heard this may be in a web series I guess(okay I am soo filmy person))... now I am in that exact s...

 Yeah,at this moment I feel like I wish my maternal grand parents were still alive.. I miss them a lot.. I miss that affection, I miss that love... Coz I never experienced that love.... That love hits different right?... I feel jelous of people who have caring grand parents...  My grand father died before I was born.. and my grand mother was seriously sick and passed away in my childhood..I used to be scared to go near to her...I regret that now... Only I know how much I miss her now. I expect nothing much but they would have mentally and morally supportive to my mom... Atleast I wish my mom had a sister..... Who can support her.. even for me.... I know how lonely it feels.. I don't know how my mom  manages to be okay all the time even with this kind of families from both sides 🙏🏻

 before this, I should say a hospital story-2 hmm.. it was causality ward.....there were these two old couples who may be in there 60's.....that old woman was infected with leprosy and there was no one to take care of those old people...that old man was the only person to look after her....it is an infectious disease and both were too old to look after everything...that old man doesn't even know how to go downstairs on his own(coz it was a big hospital).. the thing is they have children who are settled I don't know if they were well settled or not but there were some people who had a responsibility to look after them no!... maybe I would have cried on that day if I did listen to their story a little longer(it was an emotional story)... I mean they were from a village and he is a farmer....you can imagine how hard they would have tried to give their children a better life... I am not judging them but it clearly shows how much they value their parents(after listening to their...

  “he is someone I would want to be with, but… I don’t know,” I say. . “you know you can’t keep doing this. you can’t keep running away from love. why is it that even the idea of being with someone scares you?” . “I don’t think you will get it.” . “We can try.” . “Okay... so love and dating? it’s a brilliant concept. I love it when it happens in books and movies. and I like the idea of love, too, but it’s hard…” “go on.” . “it’s hard because of a lot of things. it’s hard because people have a habit of leaving. they have a habit of leaving and never looking back.” . “right.” . “and I have a habit of holding on to things. to people. as tightly as I can. the idea of falling in love is beautiful until you realize that the ‘fall’ will hurt. and I’m not ready for that. it hurts too much.” . “Does that mean you’ll never let anyone come into your life?” . “I don’t know, but I really hope there comes a day when I do.” I smile. ___ scene by Shikha (@shikhaholic) for The Scribbled Stories...

 😅😅... Have you ever experienced it.. ofcourse every one does... Soo today my results are announced but they don't provide it on online for this stupid course 😬😬😬... I hope everything goes well😩😩... They spoiled my day..I am unable to sleep now🤦🏻‍♀️😑... May be I have to wait for a week to know what I did in exams 😣😓.

This is a thing from current book that I am reading which is just awesome...... I mean who doesn't wants to know about themselves...this book is more than that. here comes some interesting thing.  SELF-CONCEPT: WHO AM I? ourselves and what determines our self-concept. self-concept :What we know and believe about ourselves. You have many ways to complete the sentence “I am _____.” (What five answers might you give?) Your answers provide a glimpse of your self-concept. ummm i found it interesting...so i was exited to answer.. thought why not in my blog let's doo this... i don't think much about me but still.. 1. i am a mystery girl😜(OMG then nothing will be mystery ) okay now serious 2. i am a believer. 3. i am a dreamer. 4. i wish i could say i am a strong woman. 5. some day i am going to be ' I am a doctor '... wait not some day... after 3 years. 6. I am a person with strong opinions. umm what sayy... still I sound mystery right?😂😂... i really mean the first one....

 you’re in your 20s and all alone. you have seen your friends being miserable after they suffered a heartbreak. you’ve watched your food get cold as your parents fought at dinner. you’ve seen relationships turn ugly and fall apart. people who promise to be together usually are the ones to break it first. growing up, it baffled you. you’ve heard too many bad stories about love and attachment. now, the thought of being with someone is scary to you. when you’re texting somebody, you don’t reply in minutes. you are cautious of what you’re saying to them. you end conversations as quickly as they begin. you’ve never been in love, but sometimes, you want to be with somebody… someone who is close to you. someone who will laugh at your jokes and text you, “i’m here” when you’re having a bad day. but you just can’t. you’re scared to be in that place. you’re too scared to be in it. you’re scared of feeling lonely – and you know you will be, after they leave. you don’t gamble with your heart. ...

  I thought I had already written a post on this topic....umm I didn't........ actually, I made a rough idea of topics that I am going to discuss at starting of this blog...but I focused more on PEOPLE😂...well coz it was frustrating me at that time.... now I have nothing left about them to write paragraphs, actually it is waste of my energy...but I want and I have to say what I have experienced...okay okay now MEMORIES there is a dialogue from one of my favorite movie - gnapakaalu..cheddavaina,manchivaina manathone untai..moyyakathappadhu!... it means ...memories- whether good or bad, they stay with us, we have to carry with us no matter what. (okay... I am not good at translating, but I conveyed it almost.)... memories- moments from the past we remember the most...Ummm in my case one of my good childhood memory was school days where my mom used to walk me to the school carrying my bag, picking me up from school in the evening...

enigma..... if I want to name something after me I am going to use this word😛. i found it some what related to me.... it is a Latin word i guess... if you want to know exact meaning google it😝. .. umm...coming to today... i did some thing.. i don't know if it's correct or not, I just wanted to do so... I don't have a habit of taking new year resolutions or something...but all I wanted a  is a change. coz I am tired of some things that run behind my back and I am done with hurting myself for some who doesn't even care about me. as i said in my last post, I don't want any kind of toxicity and drama in my life any more, may be what i did is a step towards peace and less bullshit ✌🕊... hope I didn't hurt anyone, i did that for myself and for my peace and for my satisfaction. no more over thinking😌..   And I found this in the morning which made my day.. I loved it 💁🏻‍♀️                 ...

  I thought of posting this yesterday....somehow I ended up doing this now... So Rewind 2020 is all about looking back to the things that I did this year, I mean last year😅.... Some People are going to say nothing is going to change and it's just another ordinary year..some wish for greater things to happen..well it all depends on us what we are going to allow into our lives and how we are going to react to things🤷🏻‍♀️ 😌. I know 2020 is been worst for most of the people... but it was great for me..  I did soo many things that I always wanted to... and especially I enjoyed not going to college and meeting some stupid people. It was really a roller coaster ride... the beginning of the year was not that great... I was in a mess, actually, I was not myself...I was dazed...that time I wanted exactly a situation like a lockdown.... I really prayed that I wish I could escape from this present life for some time and this corona and all happened suddenly whole world stopped wo...