Skip to main content

Why should I have to..?

 This is the question that I ask myself mosht of the time...

There are a bunch of old heads I mean ooold people. I mean people who had seen life more than I did... I thought people become wise and humble as they get old... but these people are becoming more stupid and senseless... 

So.. what happened is...let's imagine there are people of almost the same age and an old guy... generally what will you expect in return a person to do... What I do... I expect the person to greet both of us in the same manner...but no... Should I say it as partiality or stupidity... Like..  should I have my own 3,4 bhk flat and 1 crore bank balance ...to that stupid someone treat me properly.. isn't the relation we have is enough...... And God have given me these two eyes and some common sense to watch this?

Why I have to experience all this bullshit and it is not even worth it....no matter how much I convince myself, how much I try to ignore all these things that happen in my daily life...I end up hurting myself...maybe bcoz I am not emotionally that strong, coz we are humans right?...we have feelings we have a heart.. we really get hurt sometimes with this kind of action.

At times like this, I really wish I could stay away from every person who is related to me.

I am not wise enough to forgive everyone for stupid actions and yes I hate them Ofcourse my kind of hate is different. The thing is they are not even worthy of my hate. This not because of ego. This is because of my self-respect...yes they did hurt my self-respect.. maybe I'll forgive them but I'll never forget.

Seriously I lost interest in socializing these days and  I am showing all that hate I have towards them on other people who really care for me. 

Hope I reach that stage where someone's action doesn't really affect me.


                                                  -Mystery girl


Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Love is..??

Hmm... Love is??! Maybe love is missing someone, no matter how busy you are. Maybe love is liking the things that person used to like. Maybe love is an endless hope. Maybe love is that smile we get when we think of them. Maybe love is the pain we are aware of but still keep chasing. Maybe love is going back to the same person again and again. Maybe love is longing for someone, even when you know they won't be yours. Maybe love is finding comfort in their memories, even when they're not around. Maybe love is realizing that, no matter how far apart, they are always close to your heart. Maybe love is both joyful and painful, hopeful yet uncertain. Maybe love is confusion and clarity at the same time. Maybe love is...(you finish it!)                                                                  ...
5 comments
Read more

I was unlucky...

Yes... yes... I'm still alive. I don't know why, but I always start my posts with "I don't know"... maybe it reflects how confused I am. Hmm... moving on to my life. As you can see, I'm hardly able to write, and now I'm at a point where I can clearly see that both my love life and professional life are messed up. I chose the wrong path, even after all these days of thinking and choosing with so much consideration. And now, I don't know how to get out of either situation. I've committed to a job role for a year that isn't related to my core subjects at all, and I've given my heart to someone who can never love me the way I want. Both of these are hurting me. These days, I'm just stuck in a loop of thoughts, or else I'm crying. I take things seriously... seriously to the heart and head. I don't know how to live with all this mess in my mind. I'm just happy that I have this blog, which is like my sanctuary. I know no one reads ...
6 comments
Read more

so far 2025 is...

So far, 2025 has been hard, maybe the hardest. Every past year was tough, but this one feels like it's draining the life out of me. I left my job with hope, and it hasn't even been three months, yet I already feel like a loser. I mean, sometimes I even feel  underconfident because it's been almost a year since I graduated, and then... These months feel like three different lifetimes. I went on a trip in January, which was cool...because it was Kanyakumari. And then, again... I lost my uncle...Something I never, ever expected to happen. And now, I'm going through a tough time in my relationship. I mean, why do I have to go through all of this? It's not like I'm sitting idle. I'm taking on-call shifts at a nearby hospital, thinking about a startup, and applying to hundreds of jobs. But still, I feel like a failure.  I know, I know...I’m not a failure. I’m much better than this. But every single year, life keeps testing my patience and tolerance. At times, I’ve...
8 comments
Read more