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  “he is someone I would want to be with, but… I don’t know,” I say.

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“you know you can’t keep doing this. you can’t keep running away from love. why is it that even the idea of being with someone scares you?”

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“I don’t think you will get it.”

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“We can try.”

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“Okay... so love and dating? it’s a brilliant concept. I love it when it happens in books and movies. and I like the idea of love, too, but it’s hard…”


“go on.”

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“it’s hard because of a lot of things. it’s hard because people have a habit of leaving. they have a habit of leaving and never looking back.”

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“right.”

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“and I have a habit of holding on to things. to people. as tightly as I can. the idea of falling in love is beautiful until you realize that the ‘fall’ will hurt. and I’m not ready for that. it hurts too much.”

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“Does that mean you’ll never let anyone come into your life?”

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“I don’t know, but I really hope there comes a day when I do.” I smile.

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scene by Shikha (@shikhaholic) for The Scribbled Stories 


This post is relatable AF😌❣️... it's totally me🤧🤷🏻‍♀️😬




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