Mystery Girl's Diaries

Okay, putting aside all the unlucky parts... I GOT MY FIRST JOBBB!!!!!!! Since this is my space here on the blog, I’m making an official announcement. Though, to be honest, I’m too scared to add it to my LinkedIn profile—it’s a whole different story. So, as I was desperate to land a job by the end of my course... I did get one, but it didn’t turn out the way I imagined. Here’s the thing... (let me tell you the whole story). The company had "health tech" in its title and offered me a decent package for a fresher. I just read the first 2-3 reviews about the company and joined. But it turns out the company is literally a scam... from the actual work to the management, everything is below average. Maybe I can’t outright call them frauds, but they’re definitely on the edge. Now, they’re showing me a one-lakh variation in my pay after I signed the bond and submitted my original certificate. I mean, I could cry about that again, but let’s not. The point is, they’re showing me a one-...

 It's midnight 12:30....and I'm frustrated as hell...like few people have no shame no nothing, they simply enjoy gossiping about your life, and that too, when you are sitting beside them and I don't know why they don't realize that I can do that too.... Is having some dignity and decency that hard??.... can't they mind their own business 🤷🏻‍♀️..... what is your age?? Elementary kid or what?!.. don't people have basic common sense???? And when they decide to keep their life personal, it means they want their life to be personal!! Isn't it??!..... And moreover, I never question people about their deeds of who they are talking to or who they are dating and stuff..yeah, I mean it...If I'm minding my business why can't they mind their about their own life....what do you get by talking shit sitting beside me, about me, and being my close friend.... I'm ashamed of this kind of friends circle...who are not at all understanding but always interfering an...

Yes... yes... I'm still alive. I don't know why, but I always start my posts with "I don't know"... maybe it reflects how confused I am. Hmm... moving on to my life. As you can see, I'm hardly able to write, and now I'm at a point where I can clearly see that both my love life and professional life are messed up. I chose the wrong path, even after all these days of thinking and choosing with so much consideration. And now, I don't know how to get out of either situation. I've committed to a job role for a year that isn't related to my core subjects at all, and I've given my heart to someone who can never love me the way I want. Both of these are hurting me. These days, I'm just stuck in a loop of thoughts, or else I'm crying. I take things seriously... seriously to the heart and head. I don't know how to live with all this mess in my mind. I'm just happy that I have this blog, which is like my sanctuary. I know no one reads ...

 I was about to sleep when suddenly, intense overthinking occurred, leading to this post. Writing about LOVE is such a tough thing to do. I don't know if I will be able to put what I feel into words, and I'm not even sure if what I feel is the way it should be felt. (As always, your confused soul - the mystery girl). So, LOVE... We seek love in different ways or in different forms in our lives. I don't know if love is all the pampering you get.  I don't know if love is respect.  I don't know if love is trust. I don't know if love is concern or care.  I mean, what are the criteria to call it love if I talk in medical terms to diagnose it as love? Love is also what we get from our pets. I don't think they pamper us; it's just their attention and presence. Is it love? There is love in every kind of relationship. Like literally every kind of relationship: grandparents, parents, aunts, uncles, cousins, siblings, friends, colleagues, couples - irrespective of ...

 I don't know why I became this person..... I mean my productivity has hit rock bottom.. coming to the point...I haven't mentioned little details about 2023... the biggest and biggest thing is me living alone..moving to a room.. trust me I became lazy and kind of responsible..I don't know if I should appreciate myself for being that daring or blame myself for still being the same lazy idiot. apart from that.. my uncle's dog..kizzie had babies, and then in April, my cousin had a baby... Then I visited Arunachalam..which was kind of an impromptu trip..I don't know how I decided and how we made it that far..but yeah,, I had a wonderful Monday darshan..I draped a saree and got dressed up like a proper girl..and the thing is I forgot to put on the bindi..a random aunty offered one when we were in line waiting. got my passport. voted for the first time AND watched the most beautiful sunsets in between those tough days... somedays I love this space.... like literally my sp...

 I knoww..I know It's late and I am still unsure if I am ready to write this post.... with my goldfish memory, I don't remember everything that happened in 2023...but I tried my best since 2-3 days, to rewatch all the images I took or had in 2023... but my laptop didn't cooperate to load all the 187546345 and so on number of pictures I had in my storage.. so I didn't recall much... I thought how should I describe 2023.... first thought that came to my mind was.. it is LIFE CHANGING.... it's not hype... I know covid year had more impact on us but for now, 2023 has that title for me... one of the many huge things that happened to me isssss.... me shifting to a room and living on my own... I mean alone... Then Kizzy had babies this year..who have become huge by now...anddddd my cousin had a baby..yesterday I got to know that she even got one tooth... and to all the alone battles and all the lessons that I learned this year... to all the people that left and to all the ...

August 30, 2023(drafted one)  I'm sitting on a bus...I was enjoying my time with the cold Breeze and a beautiful view of the sunset, and golden clouds.....but something distracted me...... people talking on calls...... almost I guess almost ro yrs uncle was planning a Goa trip, and Some other guy some other shit.....we live in the same world at the same time....it amazes me every time how different we are and how beautiful is that difference.                                                                                                                                         ...