Mystery Girl's Diaries

okay, the last one was a random rant about me being frustrated. Now it's time for me to try to accept those compliments which of course meant so much to me. Don't know why but these days everyone randomly starts complimenting me and praising me out of nowhere... so I'll tell you some of them which stayed in my mind. There is an aunty besides my house she always used to tell her grandkids to become like me... I know she used to admire me a lot and used to feel proud for little things that I do..it was all nice but at a point, I used to get annoyed. that was one and the weirdest compliment I received was from my roomie she was elder than me once she said that she likes the way I ignore people whom I don't like.. it was a funny one...I don't know what she saw...of course the way I ignore people will be insane. one of my friends said that "you are a vibe" "you are so energetic" "you give us energy" that's what she said, of course, that ...

  Yess!!!! I saw a meteoroid today, I was casually looking at the sky and suddenly I saw a star or some meteor kind of thing falling...ofcourse it was my first time, I was so much excited to randomly see that. thought like remembering this.

 okayyyy i got my 3rd-year memo today.  I have successfully completed my third year without leaving any subjects behind, for successively three years in a row and I only wish to complete the rest of the year exams in one go as these years, pray for me guys..okay let me manifest-✨ I am going to clear all the rest of years without any backlogs ✨. just today was a happy day and I am grateful...hope everything goes well in the following days and years. writing this coz I  want to remember this.

  Yess..I am returning to my base again.. going to hostel... And guess what our results are released which are not released on internet, we have to get our memos form College to confirm. Just pray that I get passed in very subject 🙏🏻😬. And I talked with a gay person today 😬 which is my first time... No matter how many times travel alone, how excited or happy I am to travel, there is always some fear or insecurity in me as a female which increases when strangers give me a different vibe..so he/she was asking about me a little too much... which made me change my seat on train.. that's it for today

No matter how stupid you are there will be some people who like something in you or they might want to be like you... that's where the compliments come from (which is a genuine compliment) . There are other kinds of people, who compliment you with some intention behind it, or for their work or you can say "use". However, since I am also a human being, I do receive compliments, of course, what they say is criticism too😂 which sounds too formal, and then body shaming too.. So may compliment you for your hard work or the way you present your work...but Compliments that are given for being the person you are or about your personality are special at least for me I mostly remember those. Since my memory has this weird ability to remember only some incidents and repeat them repeatedly in my head I remember a compliment that was given by one of my teachers in school may in my high school I guess or might be primary. So what he said was " this girl thinks soo far like about ...

 The monk who sold his Ferrari, The secret, and Autobiography of a yogi... All these books are related to spirituality and kind of self-development. I am the kind of person who believes in spirituality, I mean it has been part of my life from my childhood directly or indirectly. This reminded a memory...from my childhood..as I said I wasn't able to spend time with my grandparents but there were people who were about my grandparent's age who loved me...there was this old woman who was the owner of the house we rented..may age was about 6 or 7 at that time... she was a wise lady, she took care of me soo much... I used to spend a lot of time with her...and there was a community of some people related to meditation/ spirituality...as I said it was always been a part of my life...I heard a lot of stuff like we are not our body we are soul, we are what we think from an age where I wasn't even aware of anything but it definitely influenced me...and at that age of 6,7 where I am no...

  okay...it is a "dream" when that occurs when you are asleep. since I wrote about grandparents this came into my mind. It was not a recent thing but the same thing happened to me twice, I even wrote it somewhere in my diary or notepad. so the actual thing is I didn't even remember that dream, I don't know what happens in the dream but I ended up crying in reality when I woke up in the morning I mean I was not even fully awake, my eyes were filled with tears even before I woke up that feeling of the heavy and sad inside is all felt on the first time and same thing exactly same thing happen this time also I haven't remembered anything from the dream but I cried a bit more. all that I know is that dream was about my mom's mother. yeah, some kind of mysterious thing happens to me , randomly, out of nowhere. I know I miss her but I don't think about them that deeply that they could appear in my dreams, maybe she missed me, I guess. I wish I was a little older ...