That weird dream

 okay...it is a "dream" when that occurs when you are asleep.

since I wrote about grandparents this came into my mind.

It was not a recent thing but the same thing happened to me twice, I even wrote it somewhere in my diary or notepad.

so the actual thing is I didn't even remember that dream, I don't know what happens in the dream but I ended up crying in reality when I woke up in the morning I mean I was not even fully awake, my eyes were filled with tears even before I woke up that feeling of the heavy and sad inside is all felt on the first time and same thing exactly same thing happen this time also I haven't remembered anything from the dream but I cried a bit more. all that I know is that dream was about my mom's mother.

yeah, some kind of mysterious thing happens to me , randomly, out of nowhere.

I know I miss her but I don't think about them that deeply that they could appear in my dreams, maybe she missed me, I guess.

I wish I was a little older to understand her situation, I was a kid and I was used always scared to go near her because ever since I know or I remember she was ill and she used to look soo thin and bony. her condition became worse as I have grown up and when I realized her place in my life she is no more which makes me even sadder.

She is the only one maybe it will be the only death that I saw with my eyes. yeah, I saw her taking her last breath and it happened in front of my eyes. I was roughly 12 or 13 when she died. maybe that left a strong impression in my head. 

I don't talk about this or any topic related to grandparents at all coz I know I'll end up crying. no one knows about these two episodes of weird dreams that I had, or that I think about grandparents this much coz I never really expressed but I felt a lot. I'll tell them when I remember to... or when that third episode happens, or let's just leave it as a mystery, it happened long back like one or two years back I guess.  to whoever has loving grandparents love them back coz not everyone is that lucky to have loving ones, I wish my kids have great grandparents. I should write another part on this who really treats me as their grandchild.

                                                                                                                                          -Mystery girl