Mystery Girl's Diaries

as a pharm d student I have to visit hospital from college forward rounds once a week. only that day I feel like satisfied about my college life.intereacting with patients is the most interesting thing. this is my favourite thing. Visiting hospital gives a completely different experience like suddenly someone will shout like anything and someone will start crying arrhh it is terrible to imagine... the hospital that is affiliated with my college is a multispecialty hospital and also a medical institute. as it is multispeciality hospital I has different departments I still get confused between them coming to my first day....it was the second week of ward rounds for second years but first time for me. me and one my friend was allowed to oncology ward..............huh!! it was my first day a to hospital and we had to deal with cancer patients uhh!!......that ward was separately placed in another block from main block.......we(me and my friend ) don't even know the route to the ward one...

😂😂😂it's a web series.  as I said I love watching movies and web series.........a few days ago I made a decision not to watch any kind of love drams because there was so much unnecessary drama....but this lockdown made me watch. my first Chinese web series was recommended by one of my friends. I've heard about it before. but due to my hate towards those love dramas, I didn't watch it..then this lockdown happened and I had a lot of time to waste. I started watching and the chain is still going on. Then I found the original app of that series WE TV...this app is full of love drama series....those are like fairy tales...its been a week ...till now I watched a half dozen of series......on this point I really appreciate, praise Chinese and Korean people..because Indian movies or series include a kind of emotional drama that I don't like.    Coming to this MY LOVE ENLIGHTENED ME..huhh😤!!!....... only half of the series is uploaded. I am really regretting. ...

                                              NOTHING IS PERMANENT. EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY.   These two sentences make totally different sense to me. The first one sounds like a warning......like.. never get too attached to anything, everything is temporary. I always wanna remind myself that NOTHING IS PERMANENT in this world... nothing....people, situations, feelings, scenery everything....... everything ends, everything has its limit, and everything has its expiry date.....also the time I am having now due to this pandemic. Second one  EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY......it gives some confidence/hope-like thing to people who are in tough times.......the time you have now, the situation you are in now everything is temporary...... The only things we carry with us are our experiences and some memories, until you gonna die make as many experiences and memories as possibl...

movies, web series, songs I am a movie freak.I love watching movies.... I can't imagine my life without movies and music. this lockdown made me watch three movies in a day...😅 some movies can influence me for 1-2 days. I just keep on thinking about that....finally I have to convince  myself saying that its a movie. some things they show in movies can only happen in movies, those are totally different from normal life. some times I keep wondering about the director's of the movies .how they do that, like some times it's even hard to draw/paint a picture that we imagine they make 2hrs of  film.kudos to them..how perfectly they imagine and exhibit..wow!!!  Recently I was watching some web series of Chinese drama.......why do they narrate such perfect characters😭,which doesn't exist in reality. though it is fiction.......why do they do so, they make me increase my level of expectations at the they are only movies, imagination. only I have to enjoy them.....no expectations...

 Fear....a feeling which stops us from doing the things that we want to do. There are so many people who want to do something their life but they can't. Fear is one of the reason I guess. Hmm....there are so many things I am afraid of.one of that is stage fear-stage fright. dancing on stage and talking on stage is quite different. though I had given speeches, seminars. still am afraid of stage and also some people, some insects do scare me.  I think there are different types of fears....some are with us from starting(i mean since birth), some start after knowing about the thing, some start with respect, some with responsibility and the last one comes with overthinking. I repeat.. doing something we like without being afraid needs lots of motivation, dare and support...it's not simple as I said. as I mentioned in starting of the post...many people can't do with lack of these things.....though it may be the thing u like most you still feel demotivated some times. really lucky...

college (the regret). it has given me a totally different experience, I still can't get over it, I am still unable to accept this thing maybe because it was the first time I was away from home and away from my people. I did my schooling and +2 in my home town I was always with my school friends whom I know from my 4th standard. when I joined in this present college that I am studying I suddenly  felt like another world for me.so many unique mentalities, so much selfishness I am facing now, nothing feels like real there, maybe people  are meant to be like that I am new to that kind of environment, I don't know how much time it takes me to accept this already its been 2 years. problem is not with the course or subjects, the problem is with people and ....and people. I am really confused with their mentalities I don't know what do they want from me, they only talk with people for some benefit it seems, or maybe I feel like that and my faculty I don't know what their intent...

I had read that "REGRET IS STRONGER THAN PAIN". You can overcome the pain.... but you can't undo the time that is passed. Yeah..there are two things that I regret in my life. one is my SSC result  second is my career now that I have chosen. No one wants to do something that makes them feel regret, but those were the things I wanted to do at that point in my life. maybe I had to take a thoughtful decision but I didn't. I never thought that  they are going to affect my life seriously. The first was my choice, the school I had studied at was not good for my studies, my mom said to join other  school but didn't want to leave my friends and the result made me regret me for some time but I accepted it. The second was is the stupidest thing that I did in my life, still, I don't know what I am doing with  my life, but it makes me regret every second..huhh!!...again it's because I wanted to do that. still,  it's not about the course but the place and people tha...