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That weird dream

  okay...it is a "dream" when that occurs when you are asleep. since I wrote about grandparents this came into my mind. It was not a recent thing but the same thing happened to me twice, I even wrote it somewhere in my diary or notepad. so the actual thing is I didn't even remember that dream, I don't know what happens in the dream but I ended up crying in reality when I woke up in the morning I mean I was not even fully awake, my eyes were filled with tears even before I woke up that feeling of the heavy and sad inside is all felt on the first time and same thing exactly same thing happen this time also I haven't remembered anything from the dream but I cried a bit more. all that I know is that dream was about my mom's mother. yeah, some kind of mysterious thing happens to me , randomly, out of nowhere. I know I miss her but I don't think about them that deeply that they could appear in my dreams, maybe she missed me, I guess. I wish I was a little older ...

STANDING ON A BALCONY

 Just felt cool after writing the title..doesn't that sound like a title of a book?! okay...so it's not only about balconies but the terrace too. here, in India or most of the terraces or balconies that I have been to. they give a whole different vibe...I feel both happy and sad at times. firstly evenings on the terrace are peaceful, also ni, the sunset view from the hostel that I stayed used to be beautiful this sounds a little too much but one day the sunset was so beautiful that I automatically started wiping my eyes maybe because of that strong light and I have to admit that I am sensitive to that kind of things. so yesterday I woke and went on the terrace and there was an old man in the opposite building he was watering the plants he was there for a long time like about 10-15 mins. watching him made me think a lot of things, of course you know the first thing that came to mind is my grandparents and I again started thinking of how my life would be if I had caring grandpare...

WARD ROUND'S AGAIN

  after almost 2 years, I went onward rounds again. the only best (i mean one of the beshtest)  part of my college life. the thing that makes me realize how lucky I am and the people around me to be living healthy and happy. today we went to the nephrology ward and oncology ward(again 😬). Really we should thank god for everything we have blessed or at least we should be grateful and should appreciate what we have, coz we don't know how long it gonna last. just be grateful. coz disease like cancer don't even have some proper reason for the cause, I don't know why people have to go through all those things, maybe that's is what called fate or whatever. today I saw people doing hemodialysis, everything is new for me and I was the kind of person who used to be scared to see my own blood, and of course, once I fainted after a blood test😶, now I am a little better, but seeing those people connected to that big machine and all the needles pipes made me a little how should I ...

THIS WEEK'S LESSON

 Y es...I may not be perfect, of course, I am not...but I am definitely trying to be a better person, learning through the situations around me, from people around me...I am trying to see only the good around me...thank god, for giving me this head so that I can rationalize situations whether it is good or bad for me or according to me. I don't even wish everyone to be "ME". life can be different tomorrow either good or bad for each and every human being. even the billionaires die if it is meant to be I mean even a billionaire can't change his fate. we are not anyone's own to expect from others, to fulfill someone's expectations, and to live up to someone's expectations... BUT we live in a society and we are humans who have family "responsibilities" and social responsibilities irrespective of our economical status... if we consider those responsibilities as headache, pressure, or stress you gonna lose some beautiful relations...no one wishes for ...

NINE

I have very few obsessions in life and one of them is number "9". I am completely into this number you can't believe it, when I do some editings of my pics I place the adjustments on number nine, my volume, and everything will be on nine. I was really happy when these blog views went 999 and of course 9th post and 99th post too. and that is why I love this day more after my birthday coz it's the 9th day of the 9th month, I wish I was born in 2009 on this day. don't know but numbers can also make us feel special,  just this day (or date) is special for me, felt like writing it here. hope there comes a day where I will be busy to remember this day and when I read this post on a random day, just wondering how it feels to be busy to forget things like this. I have the weirdest dreams one of them is to forget my birthday -not every year, just one year, that too unintentionally, I should be busy with work. I know its hard for me to forget, but I want to get that busy so...