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STANDING ON A BALCONY

 Just felt cool after writing the title..doesn't that sound like a title of a book?!

okay...so it's not only about balconies but the terrace too.

here, in India or most of the terraces or balconies that I have been to.

they give a whole different vibe...I feel both happy and sad at times.

firstly evenings on the terrace are peaceful, also ni, the sunset view from the hostel that I stayed used to be beautiful this sounds a little too much but one day the sunset was so beautiful that I automatically started wiping my eyes maybe because of that strong light and I have to admit that I am sensitive to that kind of things.

so yesterday I woke and went on the terrace and there was an old man in the opposite building he was watering the plants he was there for a long time like about 10-15 mins.

watching him made me think a lot of things, of course you know the first thing that came to mind is my grandparents and I again started thinking of how my life would be if I had caring grandparents. I don't know why but I always feel that grandparents do love and care unconditionally maybe because I don't know where to expect that love from or because I missed and still miss that kind of affection.

then I started thinking about patient that I met at the hospital of his age- hope he is doing well.

and then when I look down(there is a road kind of the main road) there were people who were traveling on bikes I mean not traaveliing but some parents were taking their children from colleges, schools. there was mostly father and daughter kind of people I don't know maybe because I was focusing on them or really they were.

I really feel like what is having a normal life?is it supposed to be like that traveling on bikes having caring grandparents or is my life normal? am I missing something? is there something called normal life? so many questions run in my head when I stare at my surroundings which I have stopped doing since a long time, that happens only at that instant but still, some things make me wonder.

                                                                                                            


                                                                                                                                    -Mystery girl

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