Mystery Girl's Diaries

Usually I like or I get attracted to people who are smart, intelligent or multi-talented...all my celebrity crushes are most likely to be multi-talented (there a person called gv.prakash , who is singer, composer and actor)...or who started their career at young age... Like Justin Bieber..I don't know the exact age of him when he released "baby"..it was my first ever English song that I heard and forever fav... and now Jung kook(jk)... I mean how did they know what they want at that age like 13 or 15...I wasn't even sure about my age at that time..and they left their home at that early age...They said JK left his home at 13 and he was joined in his company as a trainee at 15 and he is an international star by 20 (I guess) now he is 24 or 25...wow..howw??..this is insane..If had 1% of self-confidence or dedication they had...my life would have been soo much better. I like people who know what they want and put their everything into what they want and of course, finally...

 

 

 https://youtu.be/bYlVAptmHtg  I randomly found this song after uploading last post..OMG this is soo relatable, this is exactly me..haha it's funny how I find relatable songs and It's great to know people like me exist and face same thing hahaha... I wish I could copy paste it's lyrics here, but iam not able to find it, she is singer famous by from tiktok it seems😅..but the lyrics is relatable AF

  huh!! what and how should I feel now knowing that people who are younger than me doing so much like they are starting their startups, travelling and some people are even more awesome with their talents.. here I am feeling like shit and you know what I still have to study three more years (again huhh!!). okay, I have to blame myself for all this, I am the one who is lazy, I am the one who lacks consistency arrghhh...  and I don't know if it's right to think like this but at least I am better than some or a few people😅, I wish someday I get some motivation to start to act than think like this. but I think I should start self-discipline myself by setting some rules for, mobile usage, mobile usage and mobile usage. and also I have to maintain a sleep schedule. actually, I did journaling for 2 months as I said I lack consistency and I am lazy I skipped some days (most days) and then my final exams happened..and I forgot about it now and I didn't follow anything which I have w...

 guess what is today, I mean yesterday(i almost forgot), my blog is one year old now, things pass very fast. okay on this note some good and nostalgic talk today which I thought writhing from 3 days but somehow I have forgotten. I feel this blog happened at a perfect time in my life, yeah it was just perfect ...when I had so much going on in my head...when I felt like not telling these things to anyone, venting my anger, sadness, madness everything into this blog, it's been awesome. I have this habit of writing from my childhood like from 5th or 6th class I guess, I used to have a diary(i still have them😉). so I mostly write when I am sad, angry, tensed/ worried and also bored. yeah I barely write when I am happy, I should make habit of writing happy things more, again, happiness can be shared with anyone and everyone listens to happy things, few people share darker times, and I rarely share them with people. at times like that things like this (i mean writing) will happen and I f...

 Peter, you accepted Lara even when you had feelings for another girl and you expected her to reach out to you. You gave Lara an opportunity to love you and showed her how precious she is. You became Lara's epic sweetheart and her first boyfriend too. You justified her about what it means to be a couple. You understood her and did everything in your power to bring laughter and joy on her face. You stood beside him in every phase and also made him believe that even in a long distance, they will make it work. Lara, you decided to be with Peter and have the experience of a relationship for the very first time. Lara, you chose Peter over all your crushes. You taught us that sometimes we need to be with someone else to know what we really want and who we truly love. You loved Peter the way no one else did. Even though you found all the charm and features for what love should be for another boy, but still you didn't give up on Peter and returned to him. You understood that Peter was ...

  I am in no hurry to fall in love. You know, it’s cool like this, single, no drama, total freedom, just peace. But I still find love the most beautiful emotion, if true. So yeah, maybe one crazy day one crazy soul will dance with my crazy soul on a crazy beat that only our crazy hearts could feel. Too crazy? Well, that’s what love is, crazy. I have realized that. I have stopped looking for logic in love, the reasons, the checklist, the good, the bad, no. Life has freed me in past few years. I don’t get too worried about "what if." I am happy going with the flow. If someone will float with me, then cool. If someone wants to leave midway, leave. If I feel like leaving, I will leave too. I realized that I was just too tied up with people. I made my life so much about them that without them I did not have any life left. And that sucks. Yes, it used to feel special, intimate, soulmates, commitment, romantic, sacrifice, and blah blah blah. But honestly, that just sucks. I don’t wa...