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LOVE from melting words

 I am in no hurry to fall in love. You know, it’s cool like this, single, no drama, total freedom, just peace. But I still find love the most beautiful emotion, if true. So yeah, maybe one crazy day one crazy soul will dance with my crazy soul on a crazy beat that only our crazy hearts could feel. Too crazy? Well, that’s what love is, crazy. I have realized that. I have stopped looking for logic in love, the reasons, the checklist, the good, the bad, no.


Life has freed me in past few years. I don’t get too worried about "what if." I am happy going with the flow. If someone will float with me, then cool. If someone wants to leave midway, leave. If I feel like leaving, I will leave too. I realized that I was just too tied up with people. I made my life so much about them that without them I did not have any life left. And that sucks. Yes, it used to feel special, intimate, soulmates, commitment, romantic, sacrifice, and blah blah blah. But honestly, that just sucks. I don’t want to be in such toxic, suffocating, cagey love.

For me, love is about being free and being happy, with a person. I should feel light in my heart, not burdened when I go to sleep. I should be understood without any explanations. Eye contact should be our most intimate conversation. Fights are not cute. No. Do you know what’s cute? Happiness. Someone making you feel happy, valued, loved, respected. That’s cute.

I know many people will think that I am looking for a casual relationship then. But no. Hey, hell no. I am looking for real love. But it should be healthy love. It should make me grow. It should add value to my life. I don’t want someone who will own me. I want someone who will hold me, just enough for me to feel protected, not tied. That’s all I want. Freedom to breathe, eat, wear, think, decide, and live. I am done with this idea of chasing someone, seeking approval. No. Why? Such a short life, and you want to waste it chasing someone, proving your love, explaining your actions? No. Love is magic. And magic is magic. You don’t explain it. You just feel it with sparkles in your dreamy eyes

~ @rkupclose
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