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MAY 5th

 guess what is today, I mean yesterday(i almost forgot), my blog is one year old now, things pass very fast.

okay on this note some good and nostalgic talk today which I thought writhing from 3 days but somehow I have forgotten.

I feel this blog happened at a perfect time in my life, yeah it was just perfect ...when I had so much going on in my head...when I felt like not telling these things to anyone, venting my anger, sadness, madness everything into this blog, it's been awesome.

I have this habit of writing from my childhood like from 5th or 6th class I guess, I used to have a diary(i still have them😉). so I mostly write when I am sad, angry, tensed/ worried and also bored. yeah I barely write when I am happy, I should make habit of writing happy things more, again, happiness can be shared with anyone and everyone listens to happy things, few people share darker times, and I rarely share them with people. at times like that things like this (i mean writing) will happen and I feel it is the bestest way.

so after I got my privacy issues in maintaining a diary, I used to write some things on mobile, a few days back I found some archived notes of mine, I read them, as I said I write mostly when I am sad or angry with that tension but when I was reading all I did was laughing...haha...it was not funny but the way I used to think at that time made me do...of course not everything will be like that, coz I am the one who wrote those, no one can understand better than me, somethings just remind me the feeling, that I felt while writing.

okay coming back those notes are from 2018, not so long back but it feels long back 3 years...Ummm and I wrote some bucket list kinda thing, I don't remember why I wrote that don't know from which I was that motivated to make a list maybe it was some movie, but I can say that I did it in some good and happy mood. guess what , none of those wishes are full filled, hope it happens soon, i can say one wish happened that i didn't mentioned in that list

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