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Attachments

 I hate attachments and I mean it coz everyone is gonna hurt in the end. 

And I learned it a Hard way maybe I still get attached but rarely but I definitely hurt, it's maybe not them but me, yeah I am the problem coz I expect. I don't know how to not expect...arrghh...and it is not about a girlfriend-boyfriend relationship. I am talking about normal relations we have with our family and friends.

The thing I already mentioned somewhere and again I am writing, I don't let anyone into my life that easily...and people who put constant efforts to stay in touch with me after I ignored them and ghosted them like anything will have a place and after all that, all they do is hurt, it's not about them again it's about me, even after knowing everything I still expect, and that's not what I want to do again and again coz it hurts, I have this thing fixed in mind that nobody really cares when I Said no I mean NOBODY!. And it hurts as much as the person becomes close and I am scared, now I am scared of friendships or any kind of attachments, I just wish I had some switches in my head to switch if this attachment thing, it is maybe because I take people seriously, I value the little circle of mine and very few people who are around me. All I wanna say is a person has to be mentally and emotionally strong like hell to have a stress-free life... I hope I would become that kind of person one day   

 


                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         -Mystery girl


                                             


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  1. Rapid PhysicaFebruary 18, 2022 at 11:11 PM

    After reading your writings, I would say that you are kind, emotional and trusting people quickly. The circle you are talking about is necessary sometimes. It helps to prevent future mishaps. I believe that we should not allow others to understand us completely (about our weaknesses and goodness). This is the key to allowing others to harm us.

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