Mystery Girl's Diaries

 On 22-02-2022 I am happy today writing this in the middle of the day...I did so many things in half-day I guess...I danced, I did painting, I heard some of my favorite OG songs, I went to college actually...well it was a great day looking forward to another half of the day. I indeed had a great day on that day.

I am not in a place to talk about marriage yet... But let me share this conversation I had with my friend recently, which I have mentioned earlier in my post. She was a conservative, typical, religious person- she was unable to take the concept of having an open relationship, I mean like kinda live-in relations. She was judging and giving a general statement about - relationships and she was saying that people get into a relationship for time-pass and benefits. It's okay I agree with that, to some extent, where people get into relationships for a purpose but it's not like that with everyone.  and of course, having a relationship and knowing about the person before marriage is necessary and people should/must know. coz you can't trust anyone blindly... there is a page on insta called dath's vault, he writes and shares real-life stories, most of the people who share their stories are people who were in relationships and marriage, most of the women get sexually tortured by...

 I hate attachments and I mean it coz everyone is gonna hurt in the end.  And I learned it a Hard way maybe I still get attached but rarely but I definitely hurt, it's maybe not them but me, yeah I am the problem coz I expect. I don't know how to not expect...arrghh...and it is not about a girlfriend-boyfriend relationship. I am talking about normal relations we have with our family and friends. The thing I already mentioned somewhere and again I am writing, I don't let anyone into my life that easily...and people who put constant efforts to stay in touch with me after I ignored them and ghosted them like anything will have a place and after all that, all they do is hurt, it's not about them again it's about me, even after knowing everything I still expect, and that's not what I want to do again and again coz it hurts, I have this thing fixed in mind that nobody really cares when I Said no I mean NOBODY!. And it hurts as much as the person becomes close and I am...

 Some things sound as simple as that...but mean so much to people who need to hear those. even already-read quotes make so much sense when you are in need to hear that.  okay! keeping all that aside, coming to the point... BE YOU!! coz recently I was thinking, We, humans, are always in rush there is no break in between with so many problems and works to do. BEING YOU is not a single thing, it's the things we do, mistakes we do, things we talk about, the energy we carry, the way you communicate everything comes under being you. In all that rush of living a running life, we often lose and forget our originality somewhere I saw so many people saying they were soo energetic and naughty in their college days but after marriage or getting the job they have been changed...seriously!? can I write it is as- you have no time to be yourself because you are so busy?!. It's not the case with everyone and it's also okay to change and become a mature person...everything OKAY and correct, ...

 It is a herbicide and I hate it the most...ask why?? coz people are dying drinking this thing. of course, all are suicidal attempts and their bad luck is it doesn't have any antidotes and doctors here aren't able to save them. The bad thing is that most of them are 18-25 age people and this makes me worry😬. For the past 3 months,  I have been attending a hospital for case studies and practice in the evenings and I saw almost 10 poisoning cases all of them were suicide attempts and most of them were paraquat and others were rat repellents, some tablets, and some acids, etc it's easy to save others but not the same with paraquat, its quite powerful and harmful, I saw only one lucky girl to be saved from that coz they reached hospital quicky and started treatment quickly. it also makes me angry that all those teenagers have silly reasons for their suicidal attempts at the cost of their life... I hear reasons like...one boy wanted a bike when their parents said NO he drank th...

S ince this day has a unique date...I had to write a post on this day. I just came back to the hostel again, at this point I wish my home was near to my college, I am sick of traveling every time with that luggage. I forgot to mention in the last post, another thing that I am naturally drawn to is knowledge and talent in a person may be... let me manifest- this month is going to be peaceful and smooth - coz I have mids, hope this mid goes well, I mean I score good marks. you don't understand why- I have crazy people around me who torture me...okay leave it. I started reading atomic habits- needed for a person like me who is lazy, inconsistent but wants to do so many things to do. hoping for a change in me till I complete the book. and today is the day jungkook debuted as an idol 9 years ago, glad that he did, he brings so much happiness into my life with his bunny smile. and I had a great discussion with one of my friends who are so religious and that debate was about relationships...

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