"YOU"

 Since my brain is working properly after a long time..one more post instantly after the last post.

coming to title "YOU".

what I was thinking is, no matter where you are born, how you are brought up or taught, irrespective of social status... there is something about yourself that stands out, that what's what makes you "YOU". how should I say it, it's like the vibe only you possess, something like your own charm. no one can have that nor you can have someones. no matter how much you try to be like someone else, that can't happen, coz it's not your thing. all those people who are famous or successful mostly know their thing, as I am writing I am thinking that isn't that awesome to find your thing and making efforts to explicate it more. I guess life makes more sense then. 

For people like me who feel like they know about themself but don't know what to do with themselves,😂 I feel you.

the strange thing is that sometimes we underestimate ourselves, there are always things about you more than you know, which only come out when you put yourself under certain situations. I love people who challenge themself, that's how you get to know about yourself, what can you do, and up to what extent... I don't know if I should consider it as an overestimation of myself- that's how i ended up taking pharm-d, coz I wanted to try something new, which I never expected, for now, I don't consider it as overestimation, I just blame it on faculty🤭. I think it's destiny when unexpected things happen in life. (i am wondering how much nonsense I talk when I get drunk if I can talk this much without even drinking😆 ). I hope I could write a book someday. (i know out of nowhere but I always wanted to write a book, don't know why wanted to mention it here).

the bad news is that colleges are opening again, I am not ready to face that reality physically, mentally, and emotionally 😬.  three more years to go, I am even scared of this year's finals🤦‍♀️.  what kind of destiny is this- I never wanted chemistry in my life after my 12th but now chemistry has become my life, I still hate it and don't know at all.

I don't know if it is a good thing to think about thinking something the way i think (why it's sounding like a tongue twister😂 wait! is this deja vu or I wrote it somewhere already?🤔). but I really like to think philosophically, I like people when they talk about their philosophies, I believe it comes with experience and makes people intresting, at least I found it interesting coz that makes me think in their way, I mean something new or in a different perspective. okay, enough about this! I wish I could find people with whom I could discuss these kinds of things, who are really into these kinds of things and find it interesting(it in the sense-my nonsense which makes sense actually).okay that's the end.

                                                                                                                                  -Mystery girl