Mystery Girl's Diaries

 Before going to the main topic I want to do this random talk💁‍♀️ gerascophobia- I found a term used to call for the thing that I am facing rn. isn't giving a diary or journal to a person is a beautiful thing to do at least for me (basically I am not a gift person for giving or taking, but I would be on cloud 9 if someone gifts me something like that- which I do receive... from me) do people need to sing while playing guitar?! (everyone in their videos are doing this.) coz you know I want to learn guitar but people will die if I sing(i am not that bad, neither good). okay okay... now the title- all are different yet the same- wow it sounds like a title of a book. why I felt this is...I am a kind of person, I may don't show it but I always want to be unique or try something different, I may not do but I always feel that... so even for a person like me...I feel relatable with people and content which is relatable to so many others...that moment yeah it's not only me going th...

soo...I binged three movies after a loong time, yeah after soo long. I used to watch 3-4 movies in a whole day...but now my brain is not cooperating as I am getting old... (my mental age is quite older than my actual age). so this movie republic was related to politics - which I rarely like to watch, but this one had some good reviews- actually it was a great movie. but it didn't get much hype -don't know why maybe there was something lacking in it professionally which I don't know... what I felt after watching these movies is -- maybe people watch movies to escape reality so they don't give much attention when they show something related to/near to reality unless I involve hyped actors...umm I should start a movie review blog right?!😂 and there is this ongoing Korean drama (series) which I am watching regularly and I loved it today was its last episode...it was a happy ending after all which we used to...heroine character was quite intimidating to me..yup she was rela...

 T hat's the quote that I found on the internet. okay, what came to my mind after reading that was... actually, I was thinking about writing something related to this, and finally, I am writinggh! what I am naturally drawn towards? simply--what naturally attracts me? buildings..old buildings, historical places, old temples. the architecture-great architecture of buildings always fascinates me and old buildings are just wow...I really feel that naturally drawn effect towards old buildings. I feel like old buildings hold a lot of stories to tell and they just make me feel..... -wow!... I don't know how should I explain it but antiques are love!!- I really have this fantasy to work in a documentary group on some old buildings, okay I said fantasy 😬😬 The second thing that attracts me is  "dance" ..yup and I found people who dance attractive(one secret revealed) and yeah I am naturally drawn to dance I guess. and the last one is one of my hobbies, sketching/painting or m...

It's that time of the year again where I have hell of a lot of thoughts running in my head and it's gonna flood here. you know there are a lot of questions in my head and in times like this, they just reappear and re-repeat in my head which just eats me. they say living within your own boundaries don't take you anywhere, if want to grow you have to cross those boundaries etc., and I am the kind of person who lives in my own boundaries, in my own bubble maybe not related to growth but it's related to my emotional side and yeah it scares me that someday someone gonna break it and I don't know how I am gonna take this. I have been protecting myself by not letting anyone into my personal space, I have my boundaries with everyone. and I know this will make no sense thinking now, maybe I'll be strong enough to take that too. little did I trust people they end up ruining it and I end up having  trust issues  again and you can't even imagine the level of my  suspici...

 Yayy... going home after almost 3 months i guess. Yup this is the longest that I have been away from home. And i still don't want to go there  bocz there may be another lockdown this time too😭😭... which i don't want. Okay keeping all those aside...i am having my best days these days. And I'm loving it. Ad today I almost missed my train becoz of my hostel mate.. however I didn't missed it 😂 but my anxiety went to peaks at some point 😬.  I want to do some productive things this holidays and also if lockdown happens. Let's see what are the unexpected things that are going to happen.                                                                                                   -Mystery girl

Yeah... it's not okay to blame yourself everytime...we are humans,we make mistakes, it's okay to blame situations and people sometimes, don't blame yourself especially when it's not your mistake... overdoing of anything causes harm for everything...as my life motto or philosophy or whatever it is called, everything has it's limits. Blaming your self is okay until you are ready to take responsibility and to face consequences wether it's your action or mistake or others that made you blame yourself or question yourself and it's equally okay to not blame yourself if you are not ready, unless you don't regret and feel guilt. And it's okay we humans need time to understand things coz we are in built with emotions...we take time to understand things and it's never too late to admit anything than regretting.  I feel life is like a one way road... there are no chances of taking u-turn or to move backwards..you have to move forward no matter what and what...

I thought about writing this post in new year but somehow I ended up posting this now.  2021 was may not be "my year" kind of year but I can sense the positivity and all the possible things that are going to happen. 2022 smells like a great year to me, i feels it's going to be great, i don't even expect it to be great, I just don't want it to be bad... Basically I'm not a resolution person but this year I just want my life to be meaningful and in my control. So 1. I want to go on trips I don't limit it by saying atleast one- i am going on tours or trips whatever, i am traveling that's it. 2. I am not spending money on unwanted things and think before spending 3. I am not going to overthink anything- i am living every moment that's it no more recollection of things especially the cringing moments 4. I should learn something or earn something by the ending of 2022 5. Stay sane, peaceful and calm- i really have anger issues..so i should try to be pati...