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LIFE UPDATES - JULY 2025

I don't know if I should call myself greedy, but...

I expect a lot, but still I end up with average or below average options in my life...with everything that I do...I don't know where it's going wrong, if it's my efforts or destiny??

let's me come to the updates part...

- I'm still trying to process my uncle's death... It's still very hard to believe, and I don't know what my cousins are going through...I wish the universe would give them more power to face all things in life..

- My cousin got engaged and is going to get married in the next months, so yeah, these days weekends are a bit busy with her marriage shopping, also mine, not my marriage but my shopping for her marriage..

- still trying to love this job...so far it's going good..

- but the pay part is still bothering me, it's hardly 25k+

- Also, one part of my heart is suggesting that I should do a master's, but I'm bothered by what if I end up with average things again...at least my brother will buy a nice house for himself if he takes a loan for me, I'm not sure...I don't want to put them in a place and myself in a place to be stressful, and also all other countries are making changes in their policies and all so yeah...I'm confused as usual..

- Andd I took a blood checkup this month, it turns out I'm deficient in so many things..Vit D, VIT B12, Iron(and also love).....  I'm 24 years old with 35kgs weight...Imagine...

- I just want to get rid of specs..and get a LASIK done, but again I cannot afford...my mobile is getting stuck and it's in its worst condition, and I want an iPhone or at least a new mobile...not to show off but I really like making videos, editing, and clicking pictures...I've always wanted to own a good camera..

sometimes I'm feeling like I'm just a girl, why do I have to do all this and think like this...i can just sit at home or simply get married because there is no point in studying 6 years and doing 15k 20k jobs and..why do I even have to all this...but again this weak independent woman switches back to almost independent women mode and gets angry and gets out of home ..stays in a friends room barely giving them rent coz I don't want to ask money in home(my friends are sweet though)..

And you know what this stupid... Telangana govt didn't release my 1 year scholarship, so my college is not giving me certificates and I have to pay them 68k to get them back and they will say they will pay me back when the scholarship gets released but I have to beg for it again and I have to apply for degree and PCI for that.. it costs me around 10k or less...and SEE.. the same person was thinking about abroad too...Great!!!

MONEY was always a problem. I don't know when I will be financially independent...at this point, I want to be married, but also not, and also I'm scared...I just can't imagine myself taking any risks for the next 2 years.....I just want a gooodddd job with pays me well and keeps me happy...

I want to sit simply and let the universe to make things happen for me (It's not that I got a job simply...I've applied for hundreds of jobs and did upskill myself, but found an unrelated job, but it's fine, it's okay...)

That was more than enough update, that was TMI...and yeah until next time...

                                            

                                                                                                                 -Mystery girl


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