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Commitment Issues or Am I Just Lazy or Scared?

Okay, here’s the thing......I think I have commitment issues. 

And no, I’m not just talking about relationships. 

It’s about opportunities, jobs, and basically anything that requires me to actually make a decision and stick with it.

Right now, I’ve got an offer.....a good one. And I’m freaking out. 

You’d think I’d be relieved or excited, but instead, I’m just... paralyzed. I keep asking myself: Am I being lazy? Am I just scared? Or is it some weird mix of both?

It’s not like I’m not getting opportunities. I am. I get calls, but the moment they come through, my brain goes into overdrive. All I hear is, “What if it doesn’t work out? What if I end up hating it? What if I’m just setting myself up for disappointment again?” I think I’m so used to things not going as planned that I’ve developed this weird instinct to just... avoid.

Maybe I’m just exhausted. Or maybe I’ve been burned one too many times, and now I’m too cautious for my own good. Either way, I can’t deny that the fear of repeating past mistakes is eating me up. I know I should just take the leap...logically, I know. But I’m stuck somewhere between ‘go for it’ and ‘maybe just stay in your comfort zone a little longer.’

Sometimes I think I’m just being lazy, not wanting to put in the effort again. Other times, I know it’s deeper than that. It’s like I’ve trained myself to anticipate failure before I’ve even given it a shot. But hey, maybe acknowledging this is the first step to figuring it out.

So yeah, commitment issues? Guilty. Laziness? Maybe a bit. Fear? Absolutely. 

I just hope I can figure out a way to move past it before I let too many good things slip through my fingers.


                                                                                    -Mystery Girl

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  1. Rapid PhysicaMay 16, 2025 at 11:13 AM

    Little sister, you think too much. Don't predict what will happen. Just get a suitable job and give your best. Experience will give you new directions. I know you will do best.

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    1. AnonymousMay 17, 2025 at 9:21 PM

      Thanks, bhaiya. I know you’re right ...I just need to stop overthinking and take the first step. I’ll try my best. Appreciate your support.

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    2. Rapid PhysicaMay 20, 2025 at 11:34 AM

      Whenever you find difficulties, search for suitable solutions. Best wishes.

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