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Turning' 24

Hmmm… yeah, tomorrow, I turn 24.

A 5-years-younger me… I don’t know if she’d be proud of me.
I know I went through a lot, but… she had more dreams.

She thought by 24 she’d be settled in her career,
and then by 24 or 25 she’d get married,
and by 26 she’d have kids…
After that, maybe open her own boutique or some creative venture where she’d be happy.

But not a single thing went as she imagined.

She went through so many things she never expected.
And after knowing everything, maybe she would be proud.
But I don’t know… I’m not where I wanted to be.
I don’t think she will be happy.
I don’t even know if I’m happy.

Maybe… I’m just disappointed in myself.

I don’t even have a job.

I haven’t earned anything.

I haven’t achieved anything I dreamed of.

I expect a lot from myself… and maybe that’s why it hurts more.

Maybe I’m just really disappointed.


But still… I know what I want now—and what I deserve.(I wish.)

Maybe…
Adjusting is adulting.
Learning that life doesn’t always go as planned is adulting.
Even after going through hell and heaven… still hoping, still trying...that’s adulting.
No… maybe that’s just life.
And maybe… that’s what it means to truly live.

Maybe this is just how life is meant to be.

AND YEAH HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! CHEERS TO TURING OLD AND BECOMING MORE WISER AND BETTER EVERY SINGLE DAY....I LOVE MYSELF!


                                                                                -   Mystery Girl

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  1. Rapid PhysicaApril 18, 2025 at 11:06 PM

    Ohhhh! I missed wishing you a happy birthday. I wish you a bright future. Be happy. Be strong.

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