Relationship

Where should I begin describing this relationship? Friendship? Romance?

Even if it's romance how should I put it into words, Fresh? Innocent?

maybe I'm a coward trying to write this and re-live the moments where the fuck am I moving on..

It was intoxicating.

It was dreamy

It was addictive

It was comforting

It always felt like one argument away

Should I think about how much pain he might be going through? Should I worry about my pain? This stupid fukn heart.

I never knew I was this great lover..still worrying about a person who ruthlessly left me, like an option..haha..still in disbelief

Where should I start missing him? What is the way he used to touch me, or how does his touch make me feel?

How warm his voice used to sound or how he shut me down on every social media now?

How safe and comfortable his hug made me feel or how helpless do I feel now?

How he used to come back to me after every fight or how he left me for his family or for another girl that he didn't even like?

Should I worry about how he is going to handle a marriage or should I worry about how I am going to live a life without him?

Why am I still holding on to someone who let go of me that easily?

My heart still skips a beat every time I see an incoming call or message, hoping it’s you, and this pain feels endless.

How do I tell him that I still love him, even if he has already left my life?

How do I ask him to pray for a future where we can be together?

How do I ask him to stay just a little longer?

How do I make him see that if not now, then someday, he should take a stand for himself?

But then again, how can you convince a man who has already made his decision?

I want to shout in front of their family, even beg them to not give him to someone else or should I feel miserable about how pitty my thoughts are?

I know I'm sad but thinking that he would have been sadder makes me even sadder

We were just another couple who got separated by this failed and dysfunctional society of caste, expectations, and everything but love.

If there is another life where you and I are already written together, I feel like dying immediately and waiting for you there.

I'm Sorry for making you read these painful things but at least in pain we are together