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Life Update - 2025 february

 Yes... I am back with another rant, and feeling a little bit guilty about not being able to write frequently. 

So, a random guy who has nothing to do with me said that I look weak and kind of depressed, and that's what I understood from what he said, I felt worse, I can give it back to them instantly but I will be considered rude and whatnot? Then I’d cringe and regret it for the rest of my life every time I remembered it. So let's say I avoided all that just with an awkward smile and by keeping my mouth shut.

Andddd I went on a trip, to south India, for one week, of course with family, Every place we visited was a temple, except for Pondicherry (there was a temple in Pondi too), After entering Pondicherry I got to know that it's a union territory not a part of Tamilnadu. well, I left my General knowledge in my school itself.

But I never thought I would make it to Kanyakumari this year. I borrowed money from a friend and went on that trip 10k I took a 10k loan lets say, it's my first ever loan, I always used to think, I would do things with my own money, this was out of character behavior, coz I was losing my shit, as I resigned my job and nowhere to go, obviously staying home, and lost interest in everything, I neither want to learn anything nor want to beg for a job.

I’ve always believed I’m meant for bigger things. I always think I deserve more, even though life humbles me from time to time. Some moments even made me question whether I’m just ordinary or nothing at all. But when I become sane again I will pick up my attitude, Just because someone is offering a job doesn’t mean I should do that, that's something I learned from my first job, I want to do a job that I love and at least my paycheck should motivate me. I am not settling for anything less than that.

Okay, this rant completely went off track, I should start writing subject-specific posts like before. Now that I’m jobless and have all the time in the world, let's just admit I became lazy, But this time I will definitely start writing something meaningful again...

                                                                                                    -Mystery girl


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