Mystery Girl's Diaries

August 30, 2023(drafted one)  I'm sitting on a bus...I was enjoying my time with the cold Breeze and a beautiful view of the sunset, and golden clouds.....but something distracted me...... people talking on calls...... almost I guess almost ro yrs uncle was planning a Goa trip, and Some other guy some other shit.....we live in the same world at the same time....it amazes me every time how different we are and how beautiful is that difference.                                                                                                                                         ...

I find it amusing that I write these posts either when I am full of emotions or after moving on from those emotions.. most of the time I start typing aggressively at that moment, then draft it. When I sit and read after getting settled... I read it with a completely different mindset. like this post...I titled it on the 7th but today is the 9th...yeah so much has been happening and so much has happened this year and I want to write each and every detail of those emotions... I'll do it in parts but yeah...first the context and the main point! I heard a quote that says when you love beyond yourself self only then do you know completely about yourself. I experienced that this year...and yeah I should write a completely different post on my relationship...more details on that but for now...I have struggled so much in this relationship but yeah I'm learning about myself and how a relationship works and all....grateful that I got to know about myself.. and when I said my world was fa...

 yeah.....finally, I got my turn to vote for the first time at 22 years. but I'm pretty sad about the result coz...someone stupid became CM and I feel awful for the present CM I mean ex-CM coz I think he really deserves another chance, he did soo many things, GREAT things I say....I don't know if anyone knows about Mission Baghiratha...it is something huge that not anyone could think of or risk....he had that gratitude to think of it as his state. After all that he did, I don't care if he is corrupted or ate people's money as they say coz no one brought that change in all these decades you imagine a company like Amazon knowing a place like Hyderabad without their efforts. I don't know much about politics but I saw the change in the state. I don't know about the World Cup match but today was very intense and this loss is feeling very personal. I don't know what people are celebrating, I mean are they even realizing who the leader has become. #FirstTimeVotingS...

 There I said it... of course...because forgiving and forgetting IS BS! (bullshit). really! does anyone reallyy..really forget something they did?? or something that happened to them??? IT IS ONLY ACCEPTING AND MOVING ON!!! and that part, that hurts, is neither easy to accept nor to forget. Things like surviving, struggling, getting hurt, healing....... nothing is easy in life... I mean literally nothing is easy, everything is hard and every day is one kind of struggle... BUT  it never occurs in our head that these things are hard... we have normalized it soo much that we blame ourselves, we feel bad and we also guilt trip.  It's not everyone's cup of tea to be strong and take it easy to forgive and forget. It is okay to be different, feel different, and it's okay if we feel difficult coz that's how it is supposed to be.... on the other hand I'll say...everything is as we think and as we feel...if we think it's hard it will be hard... it's US who gives power...