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DYSFUNCTIONAL GENERATION AND SOCIETY

 After being out in the world for quite a long time...

After meeting enough people to understand how the world behaves and ACTS...

I feel like I have failed to find good friends around me... I regret that I don't like people for what they are... 

I mean how bad a person can be toward another human...how much a person can affect others but just talking nonsense about others...

These days I'm feeling very bad... It's a different kind of bad... how dysfunctional, how ill-functional society are we leaving, or maybe it's just I am...

I went through so many phases because of the vibes around me... lets's say mindsets...

I may sound like I hate people, I may sound like I'm too much negative and I may sound like I'm just sharing the negative side...

but NO...I am a human too...I do think... You know there are times when I blamed myself, there are times when I felt like I'm the one who is wrong, and there are times when I get angry with myself about not being able to be like them.

Everyone knows, each and every person knows what they are doing, each of them know that they are causing damage to others...

What makes me pity, nauseous, and angry is.... people who encourage that just by listening and entertaining that... People call themselves friends and  Not do not take a stand behind them...

People know who are badmouthing behind their backs and still choose to be with them and laugh with them...after doing all that drama in front...they come to me and confess that they just have to or had to do that....and I really really can't digest that... I mean who are they fooling...

what kind of life is this...is being genuinely nice and happy for others that hard...

Its not about Friendships ONLY... every kind of relationship has become this worst, I know I am grateful for being able to live in the world for all the good things but at the same time, I'm ashamed of the things like this that I have experienced...

I hate to exist at a time where LOVE, HONESTY, LOYALTY, AND FRIENDSHIPS have no meaning...and yeah I do hate myself sometimes for not being mature enough as them and not being able to accept that and I hate for hating myself for others.

I am a person who believes that human relations are soo precious and soo beautiful...we can live happily by JUST BEING NICE.

It's not even hate anymore coz I know ist pointless, it's just disgusting...sometimes I convince myself by saying that just because that's how people are I don't have to be like them, that's not what I want...All I want is that trust, truthfulness, consistency, and loyalty in any kind of relationship that I share with people, I may not find it with everyone but I'm grateful to find at least 1-2 people in my life, I live for that kind of relations and I live making that kind of bonds with people... I'm fine with it if people call it hate, ego, unfit or immature, or any kind of odd thing...

I am scared to live in a world where I cannot or where I'm not able to believe either the things that I hear from others or the things that I saw with my own eyes.

I don't know how people are okay with hurting each other and acting nice to each other... sometimes I just feel miserable.

I can't be nice to someone who did something bad to me or my loved ones or anyone else and can't even admit the things they have done and expect me to be okay with it.


                                                                                      -Mystery girl










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  1. Rapid PhysicaAugust 1, 2023 at 9:38 PM

    We are living in the word where most of the people react with fake expression. This is the most confusing part of the life. You have stated very important points in your post.

    After watching television, people have become dramatic with plastic face. No natural emotion but fake expression.

    But it is easy to identify them.

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  2. Rapid PhysicaAugust 8, 2023 at 9:38 PM

    :)

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  3. Tels kaa nenevaroAugust 30, 2023 at 9:59 AM

    Chadivaanu mottam. First blog meedi chadavadam, chaala unnai Inka chadavalsinavi, frame to frame teliyaalante mellagaa okkoti anni chaduvutha. Yeah, through my general experience of life, I've seen how selfish people in general are and how making fun of someone is so agreeable... Lot to share...





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    1. Mystery Girl's DiariesAugust 30, 2023 at 11:31 AM

      Haha....hope you enjoy reading every post 😅.... Ready to hear...

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