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STONE IN FLOW

 That's what I was feeling recently during my regular session overthinking,

One day afternoon through all the thoughts I quoted the situation of my life to a friend that I was feeling like a stone in the flow...where everyone is going with the flow, I don't know if I am strong/Stable or not but I definitely feel like my life isn't moving anywhere..there is no momentum...it is feeling like the same routine..even though I am making few major changes once in a while... I  mean financially, career-wise, or maybe personal growth.

I know there are great parts of my life too but it's the bad things that bother us more.

and in between all this chaos, I didn't even realize it was my birthday tomorrow...I mean I know and I remember but it's my brain that is not excited... I don't even know if should celebrate... I know I am hard on myself but I feel like I didn't even do anything great to celebrate my birthday.

one the positive side I did took a few big decisions on my own...I might regret those once in a while but I know how much time I took to take that one step and I believe it's all worth it.

I am becoming lazier and lazier these days... hope that ends here.

I hope my 22 will be filled with soo much love..soo much joy and a few achievements that I will be proud of and some of which I can mention in my resume.

And with lots of positive energy and few manifestations....I wish myself a very happy birthday..

on this note let me remind myself that..I deserve the love that I get... it's okay to trust people and it's okay to outgrow a few situations and people...I am stronger and Happier.


                                                                                                                          -Mystery girl

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  1. Rapid PhysicaApril 30, 2023 at 8:54 PM

    Ohhh I miss the cake :) Let me tell you one of my secret.....I don't celebrate my Birthday. This day me, my sister and mother cook new dish together. Life is more enjoyable when family is with us.

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    1. Mystery Girl's DiariesMay 2, 2023 at 9:20 PM

      I would love to have a low key b'day like that... but I am at age or stage where people around me are exited than me on my birthday..so I let myself enjoy that...I want to travel on my birthday..I want to stay home and do nothing on my day...I hope some day I do that...

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  2. Rapid PhysicaMay 30, 2023 at 10:17 PM

    Ya...Best wishes

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