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THESE DAYS

I don't know what I am doing with my life these days...

I don't know if I am impatient, impulsive, or aggressive...

It is overwhelming...

I have even cried after moving in..because it was too much for me to accept and all that happened in a single day... and guess what?! I left that internship after my 3rd day of work...of course, it was not at all related to my academics and they kind of started to stress me...well after all this what I thought was will I be ever able to do a 9 to 5 job. and my love life...I am trying my best..it is at its best right now.

I am also enjoying these days...discovering new things about myself ...I am chef material believe me...I am pretty proud of myself... well I am also lazy....but these days I am having quality sleep and great naps.

I just hope everything happened for something good in the future and I badly want to earn this year.


                                                                                                       -Mystery girl 


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  1. Rapid PhysicaMarch 17, 2023 at 8:38 PM

    If you don't like .....Don't do it !!! I appreciate your decision. It is not easy to take decision in early stage of internship. Normally I found Timing in any internships more than 8-9 hours. This time you cried that lightened your mind. But next time you wont cry.

    You would find another one in short time. Stay tuned !!!

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