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OCTOBER/NOVEMBER

 I know it has been soo long... let's say these days, I am out of track.

Or you can say I am occupied with soo much..or you can say I found someone with who I can rant randomly.

The truth is this project thing that messing up my head, Then, of course, I was not feeling great mentally most of the time, there were a few bursts outs once in a while, but yeah I guess I'm okay, this is a mess is what makes me ME.

The irony is I also had great times in between, probably some of the best times.

it's really weird that these two months were, how should I say....typically confusing or a perfect balance of... two extremes

like love and hate, sadness and happiness everything happened.

okay, what I have realized is hanging in there and holding on to things even if the days get tough....maybe between these days, I forgot to love myself, yeah once in a while everyone needs to remind themself to love themself....whoever, reads this, love yourself a little more today.


                                                                                                                                   -Mystery girl


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