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A forever kind of love

 I want a forever. I am sorry, but I want nothing less. I want someone who will stay. I want to grow old with someone, sharing every day, sharing the little things. And yes, I also want to have the same excitement and passion, even on our last day on earth. So you are not allowed to get bored of me or anything that I do. When I smile at you, it should not be "I have seen that smile a million times." No, I want to see that longing in your eyes that you too want to join me in a smile. I am a crazy person. I do the silliest of things. And I want you to react to them, the same way. If you scream at me, scream forever. If you throw a pillow at me for taunting you, throw the pillow forever. If you find me cute when I kiss your forehead, then give me the same warm look forever.


Are you getting me? I want everything to last, forever, the same way. I don’t want the love to fizzle out. I don’t want the intensity to lose steam with years. I don’t want you to ever get bored of me or my things. And I know this is lots of work, effort, emotions, and purity. So please say yes only when you say yes to all of this. Otherwise, you are not going to last. We are not going to last. And I have no time for temporary emotions. Stay only when you can stay 100%. Love me only when you can love me forever the same way. Promise me only when you will keep your promise no matter what. I don’t want excuses. I don’t want life tiring out our love story. I want what they write in books. I want what they show in movies. And if you are going to tell me that happens only in books and movies, then be the first person on earth to do that for someone in real. I don’t care. I want that or nothing.


I know I am crazy. I know I will die alone if I keep my hopes so high. I know that souls like me are rare. But I also know that I will live like this only. Either I am going to live the most epic love story or I am not going to live a love story at all. I am willing to risk loneliness for real love. I will wait for that love to strike me like a lightning. You stay happy with your ordinary love. I pray for you.


~ @rkupclose

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