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 releasing this today from drafts...coz it just felt funny reading that now, I was maybe overreacting...It seems but it's okay to react in such a way it's just humane.

18-5-22: Okay...I am writing this post in anger you can say...

I had or have a childhood friend who was my classmate...

Things change...I had to move to another city...

We used to stay in touch.

But that person seemed to fade away... I thought that person just moved on Maybe...I didn't feel that importance of her telling me things...she just forgot me I guess... maybe people change and their priorities change.

No matter what we always had that place in my life...but I don't think it will last forever...

This forever kind of thing really doesn't work out...there is nothing forever.. without any change...

And that scares me the most... having a forever friend is not happening in this world or in my life...how I am gonna find a person who stays forever with me..this is some serious shit to me.

And I am not going to make any person that important or closer to me now...I had enough.. coz some people have been through phases of my life with me.. of course Never understood me... it's not like I am complaining...they were always happy for me, maybe sometimes...okay whatever..it's the end for now..we may become friends again but not the same...you don't know about me...I am the most selfish person you have ever met...I am essential to myself...I cannot allow myself to have another emotional and mental damage...I already have enough.


                                                                                                                                     -Mystery girl

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  1. Rapid PhysicaMay 27, 2022 at 11:54 PM

    Nothing lasts forever, it is true. However, I believe that for us, forever means "until death," which may be 70-100 years. After that, only God knows what will happen. I wish you good luck in finding a decent mate who will be with you for the rest of your life.

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