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EMOTIONAL TRIGGERS

"Whatever triggers you is also what you need to heal"

The quote that I read today.

umm...triggers...of course, we get triggered for the tiniest things in our day-to-day life...

I don't know about others but I get triggered by so many things in a day.

Actually, what is a trigger...for me it is the thing that makes me angry.

I am the most easily irritated person you will ever meet and people cannot tolerate my waves of anger.

And it troubles me the most, because I never want anyone to suffer because of me, of course no one wants.

I get triggered easily if it is coming from my people... and i get even more angry if they don't understand me..coz i am not a person to show my emotions to everyone, and if they don't get me..I get away from them...I maintain my emotional distance from them. coz i don't know how and what to do. I get super angry with my people that if they don't understand me that anger comes out in the form of tears helplessly.

I wish I was a saint or something to control myself, still I hold so much to myself most of the times I suffer alone, within me.

Maybe I need to heal or maybe I need an understanding soul, I don't know but for now..I have and I need and I am happy drawing lines around me and by not bothering others...let live like this girl, and just run along with this world...coz expecting people to understand you is your stupidity and trust me it hurts even more when the person who understand you doesn't understands or when that person gets busy to here your rant.

Being selfish is the only way to survive in this mean world, for our peace, for our mental peace...being selfish is mandatory and healthy coz however no one understands you more than you do.

I hope some day I will be able to write solutions for these emotional triggers.

let me remind myself "everything is temporary" good or bad.


                                                                                                                                       -Mystery girl


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