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Twenty one

 Hmm..let me take a deep breath...

It's my birthday again... I was twenty last year and it felt like 2-3 months passed and boom my birthday again...I am excited and scared af. You know the reason.

I know I didn't do anything great this year...but I feel like I have changed a bit... the way I am dealing with things has changed, of course, I am proud of myself for so many things. 

And I was doing a few things and telling myself maybe this is adulthood isn't.

It's Been two complete months I have not been home and I am not homesick, I am. Homesick but it doesn't mean I want to go home huhh adulthood.

Happy twenties to me, I wish myself the best and be a better person, don't mind what people do or talk about you and it's time for the growth 📈 of quality of life, let's spend time wisely and I try my best to not cry over silly things and of course....tours and trips l..girl just manifests it...I am going on so many trips this year that's it.

Well! I wanted to spend it like a normal day... but my people made it a memorable day, they made me feel special. basically, I don't like all the unwanted attention on b'days, but getting wishes from people who matter to me feels loved, of course, everyone feels the same, but for a person like me for whom receiving any form of things or love is a little bit uncomfortable, it's not even that, I just don't know how to receive love from others maybe.

All the wishes made me feel, grateful, one of my friends said "thank you for being born" I don't know if she mean it but it felt good to hear...I wish all the people who wish good for me get so much love and joy in return.

This birthday I promised myself a few things hope they work out, I should make them work out, hopefully.

Happy twenty-one to me, let me manifest all the good things this year.


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