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Unnecessary

This post is me ranting about my own shit...please let me get the hell out of me.

I am sick of all the unnecessary drama that I do, all the unnecessary thoughts I have, and all the unnecessary help or things that I do to others that they don't even appreciate, or at least it doesn't help me in any way.

From all the unnecessary attachments to all the unnecessary arguments that I do and all the unnecessary overreactions I give... I need to get a hold of myself.

Well I am not doing that free suggestion thing out of concern or sympathy, empathy, or whatever coz I am done being wronged or not appreciated, and it doesn't help me, maybe I do such things as a humanity part inside me wants but not from now, you die, I watch you die.

And of course, I am the most dramatic, selfish, self-centered, narcissistic, and hypocrite you ever meet, and I have to change but I don't want to be nice to people either let me be whatever I need. it is maybe because of the unnecessary attachments I have with people maybe I don't need to get that attached to people.

It reminded me of the quote that goes "Attachments are the root of all suffering", where is the lie? isn't it the hard truth?

And I am still scared of people getting close to me, I don't want to hurt people even if they are ready to get hurt coz I know I will be hurt the most, coz I am an impulsive, aggressive, and easily annoyed kinda person, I don't know why do they even want to be with me or like me, I am a no-good person and yeah I feel like I am wasting their time every single time they give their time to me, and I am legit scare of people who set me as their priority, isn't all this shit unnecessary but my brain doesn't listen to me.

And most unnecessary thought I have is I know everything about the people who are closest to me, it's the stupidest thing, you do not need to know everything about everyone and everyone has their personal life and everyone wants their personal space, it is up to them. this time I should be within my limits. that's all for today's mystery girl's unnecessary rant, I am done.

                                                                                                                           
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