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 Today and recently I am being and I was in a mood to say a few people "go fuck yourself" but no I tried to stay sane but again I remembered I was a human and I can feel things, I felt a bit Angry but again I remembered that I am tired being angry and as always I have been disappointed in people and yeah today is the day I have to blame myself for expecting the least that people could do and of course, I felt worst being surrounded by such kind of people coz I never do such thing to anyone and yeah I am okay now coz however people are always same, period!

and this version of I don't give a damn me is facing such kinds of things a lot, it's okay, it feels like I am in an emotional level of the game going through shit and upgrading myself, I wish I could say thank you in their faces for making me learn something.

am I cursed to have only to have such kind of people or is this happening in everyone's life, coz no matter how, no matter what, I am trying to stay positive about them and protect my energy and they are just draining it and proving me wrong every single time and guess what is annoying after all this SORRY I wish I could make them feel what I felt and tell them the same sorry and ask them how it felt, it's not about how many times you do the same thing it's about who did and how much it hurt And how much it hurts me tells that how much they mean to me.

let me say that I have the worst classmates ever, from whom I thought a few are at least better, let's not say they are worst but they can never make me forget that they made me feel worst at some point. I feel really happy if I just forget it like that.

I want to tell myself sorry for letting me hurt,yes,it's my mistake.

the best part of being me is I can't stay angry or disappointed for a long time with whom I don't care or feel as my people, let's just feel grateful for that one thing for today.

you cannot be more disappointed in the same people again and again right?! I just lost it.

okay okay, I don't want to end my day with this negativity, lets's just pray for them, hope they don't hurt more people, and stay happy forever.


                                                                                                                                     -Mystery girl

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