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March 9th

 I love 9's and of course, I love the 9th day of every month.

umm...Feb happened very quickly, but It was good, not worse at least, 2022 is being nice to me till now, I hope the whole year will be this nice and April is going to be full of celebrations, I have a few family functions and also I am getting older. it's going to be April again, I mean I didn't do anything, I am staying at home or hostel and getting old..aarrrgghhh, it's really annoying, I just want to manifest that this year going to be great.

Oooh shit I forgot to mention, I thought I was ready to expose this blog to the public, actually, I was sure for that one day and made it almost public by mentioning it on my Instagram, but i felt like it's better to keep some things private, it's better this way people finding my blog randomly and reading it with out knowing who I am... umm...am I going to leave this blog like this? nope, maybe someday I'll be confident enough to make it public but definitely, with some different content, I am happy that I have this clarity for now, my thoughts and brain was swung between I should have made this public or not, it got cleared now 😬

and not to mention, I am quite a bit happy these days, maybe I am being myself after soo long around a few people, with whom I lost a bit of being okay, Ummm...this is what human evolution is called, let me remind you, be okay with yourself than others and its not your fault every time, it's theirs too sometimes, and give them the audacity to blame themselves, I am sick of blaming myself for things others did to me, now feel like I am out of that zone, this is I don't give a damn phase of my life.

 Mystery girl will come up with all the latest things that are going to happen in her I don't give a damn phase of her life😂, until next time, mystery girl signing off.

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