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BOUNDARIES AND TRUST

It's that time of the year again where I have hell of a lot of thoughts running in my head and it's gonna flood here.

you know there are a lot of questions in my head and in times like this, they just reappear and re-repeat in my head which just eats me.

they say living within your own boundaries don't take you anywhere, if want to grow you have to cross those boundaries etc., and I am the kind of person who lives in my own boundaries, in my own bubble maybe not related to growth but it's related to my emotional side and yeah it scares me that someday someone gonna break it and I don't know how I am gonna take this. I have been protecting myself by not letting anyone into my personal space, I have my boundaries with everyone. and I know this will make no sense thinking now, maybe I'll be strong enough to take that too.

little did I trust people they end up ruining it and I end up having trust issues again and you can't even imagine the level of my suspiciousness. and the fun part is this gut feeling of mine never lies, thanks to that.

but yeah I am trying to change to be a better me, and what I learned is you can trust someone unless you are not affected by the result, simply don't give the power of hurting you to somebody else, everything has positive and negative possibilities expect both and be ready to face and accept whatever the results are and don't forget to enjoy or living in the moment when everything works out in the way you want.

and how I convinced myself is it's okay to have your boundaries and liveing in your boundaries but...you know my lines - everything has its limits! it's okay until you are protecting yourself but don't make a fool out of yourself. and it's okay to step out of your boundaries and experience whatever life throws at you so that you can have stories to tell people.


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