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LIFE UPDATES NOV-DEC

life is being hell and heaven these days... I know it's been long... as I always wish got busy these days, yup seriously busy!! BUSY it was 😂.

hmm...before everything I really understood the meaning of this quote I read a long time ago "misery loves company"...well I just learned there are types of misery too, let's discuss someday.

coming to my hell and heaven....these days I am hustling, attending college regularly, kind of doing an internship at a hospital, and dealing with the bullshit of stupid people around me, and also I became considerate of spending money...all these things giving me some serious adulting feels..seriously feeling my twenties rn.

of course, I learned so many things in this gap, I am trying to be sane these days, trying to be motivated and positive and most importantly I am trying to be sane while dealing with insanity.
since I am saying "adulting" ask me what it means...well according to me with my little experience it is dealing with your own shit without blaming anyone else. 
as I said staying sane means not letting anyone or any event that happened or happening around affect you mentally. yeah,, these are what I learned and doing rn.
and yeah again there are so many hospital stories to share but no time to write hope I don't forget them.
and lastly money yeah I realized how I spend money and recently I am trying to be in control of everything sorry, I am controlling everything in my life so yup that money thing definitely made me feel like an adult, I was considerate before too but now it became a little more. I feel responsible for my actions.
not to mention I have best people/friends and worst classmates ever. ending here, definitely another post tomorrow.

                  
                                                                                                                               -Mystery girl


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