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Feeling 20's maybe

 just finished giving my exams, mid-term exams which felt like finals and took forever to end.

before coming to the point... sometimes I feel like I should have named this blog as random rants or angry young woman something like that....okay done.

feeling twenties indeed!...ask me why?? I am gonna tell even if you don't.

going to college regularly made me learn and feel many things...it's not only college other things too.

It's been a long since I wrote something in the blog...

I have been experiencing so many things recently through little things that are happening to me.

I have recently got on a running bus...obviously, it was my first time getting on a running bus.

and there are these kids where I live...since schools have reopened they were crying daily...watching them made me feel that at least they can cry loudly for that reason...I want to do the same thing at my present age too... but I can't...is this what adulting is supposed to feel like.

and there was a time where I had no interest in celebrating any festival or anything... but this time I felt like there will be or maybe times in future where I'll be really busy or there may be situations which do not support me to celebrate...rarely I may be celebrating 10-15 times of each festival(like Dussehra, Diwali, etc,). so I should be celebrating when I a have chance. this is what staying away from home for a fest of consecutively two years made me realize. well, this year I did celebrate. kinda grateful.

like this, the little things started making sense to me now...I don't know but I am feeling my twenties...this back pain tho...I don t know how I am gonna manage in my thirties. god, show some mercy. still, I am young blood no, I'll manage.

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