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04-08-2021

 umm...just finished my 3rd-year final exams...you know what I hope and wish.

at this point, I feel like I am kinda getting old.

I mean I am going to be in my fourth year OMG... years are passing like days, also there were days which I did pass like years... but imagine If I was in any UG course, I would have been in my final year.... all my friends who are BTech will get settled in their careers by the time I get graduated. it doesn't mean I have no career but a kind of FOMO. well, I still question myself so many things, and it's okay.


and another thing.... actually I have very few people who are close to me and who consider and give value to my opinion. regardless of the closeness we share, I found so many people don't know why, they share their stories with me like opinions, problems maybe their pain sometimes. hmm..okay, I feel great that they consider me as a person who understands them and I am happy to hear them too......but there was a point I used to overthink their issues too, I used to feel like their problem are mine.....and there was also a time where i needed people to hear me but I guess I found no one...  like they barely tried to understand me or maybe they were not even ready to hear mine.....I don't know why now I am randomly thinking of all that...okay lets leave it. whatever happened was, for good, and yeah now I don't think I 

take things to heart which I used to do...

Maybe the thing I learnt was not to be soo hard on myself for every little thing, mostly the things which happen out of my consent. 

okay now I wish, I hope, I pray that I clear all my 3rd-year subjects too.



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