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A Thing that I am scared of!

 https://youtu.be/ipbCzTxa6CM  

It is the best thing that I watched today on the internet. sadguru spoke beautifully. OMG, the way he put his words is just awesome.


yeah...today I am going to write something which is one of my weird traits😆.

apart from things that annoy me. somethings also scare me, I am not scared of people that much, the little that I feel is maybe due to the respect I give them.

okay coming to the point, what is scares me is attention, am I the only one who feels like this, seriously my anxiety goes peaks when someone gives me attention suddenly.. or when some who never cared about my existence suddenly starts to care about me. (wait! did I write this already? okay, who cares)

is this some kind of complexity like an inferiority complex... I don't know but I hate that when someone tries to move closely with me or wants to know me.

 I am scared that I may start depending on them if get used to them, I am scared that I may hurt them, what if they start depending on me emotionally, I am scared that I may not reach their or fulfill their expectations, either they are my friends or family. the thing is I get hurt easily. And I hate when someone tries to depend on me or puts high expectations on me. 

In this process of expectations, I had to and I still do ignore, communicate less with some people. in case of scenarios like my exam results, I prepare my people for the worst, I don't like when they keep high expectations on me coz that never happens, they should only trust me😌.(i should write another post on expectations). I may have hurt some people, but this is what I am , this how I am. I don't know if anyone could understand me



                                                  -Mystery girl

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