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LOCKDOWN #CORONATIMES

 ummmhmm.....5 months....almost half a year!!😶.........just realized I did nothing even after getting 6 months of free time...actually that's what I was wishing for before lockdown. I wanted a break from my life though I did nothing much. I was mentally disturbed.....

sometimes it feels like was it my wish that came true.😅, is this lockdown happened for me..haha....... it was great, it is!.... well I did nothing great but I did somethings that I would have never done before and maybe it would not have done if everything was normal annd maybe I may never get this kind of break or free time in future....that is why it's great to have a time like this.

I love reading, but I had never had much time to read a novel ( can only read when my mind is stable). this time I had read a dozen books... which I would haven't if everything was normal if I am was in my hostel😅

I love everything which makes me think new, I love fashion designing too, I can't say it's my passion, I can say that I love designing, creating by myself... well!! I also had time to do this.❤

as I already said I love watching movies, this time I binge-watched sooo many series
Korean dramas and Malayalam movies are the best!..... I had almost watched 30 web series.... maybe I wouldn't have watched if I was in a hostel and had to college.

and also I learnt soo many new things... I was always comfortable being home alone... I wish I can find it easy to socialize with people when everything is back normal🤞

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