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STORY BEHIND MY BLOG

Okay!! It is my personal blog. I forgot to give an intro about myself.....
so I am a teenage girl who is going to step into her woman's age(hahaha), I was always stuck between my thoughts and reality....ending up like a helpless stupid at last between my thoughts.....

the reason for adding "diaries" to the blog name is...I used to write my personal diary since 
I was a kid...I used to write all the things in my mind whenever I experienced extreme happiness or sadness or helplessness......I remember I used to cry most of the time writing my diary ...as I already said I am an introverted extrovert I talk too much but I share less ...maybe that is the the reason that I always feel so much chaos inside me.......don't know why I never wanted to share anything about myself with others.....I never felt like this person was going to understand me completely...

Maybe every teenager will feel like this...still, it was difficult...I used to think too much actually I still think too much..... am working on that, controlling my thoughts. I have too much to talk about those thoughts I'll do in another post.....so, DIARY I think during my 10th standard summer vacation one of the people close to me read my diary without my permission.....I was totally gone blank..coz I never wanted to share anything with anyone(the thing is most of the matter in that was about the person who read) ..from that moment I totally lost interest in writing my diary which was the only source for me to put all my thoughts together I warned them and fought with the person who read it..still

It was like heartbreak to me...I never wanted to start another one.................slowly the thing I realized was all the thoughts that I wrote were always between me and me.....but I wanted to share it with another person who was never there in my life,(There are some people who try to understand me but I never felt to share with them)......the best option I found is blogging where I can share anything I want to....huh!!! this was the baahubali story behind starting this blog

                                                                                                   

                                                                                                               -Mystery girl
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