Mystery Girl's Diaries

In the process of living, we just make ourselves so small that we start giving so much of ourselves and so much value to other things that affect us... I mean we don't even realize it until we explain it to someone else we should value ourselves more from the beginning so that we don't feel lost.                                                                                                                                -Mysterygirl

I guess there is no place for people who want genuine and long-lasting relationships. People here seem to want only temporary things to satisfy them in the moment. They are willing to let go of a permanent person for their fleeting pleasures. YES, this is a generation where everything has become VALUELESS, and there is NO RESPECT for any kind of relationship. And YES, these people don't deserve true love. They chase after benefits, not a complete relationship. It's heartbreaking that people don't respect or value you, even after you've begged them to do so. The level of disrespect and blame you have to endure as if it's ONLY your mistake and never theirs, is truly sad. People who once pleaded with you to talk to them will now ignore you to the point of emotional annihilation. It's all so sad, and they don't even have the decency to change their behavior or leave you. I'm living through hell every single day with a person who neither communicates nor chan...

 I don't know what I'm feeling currently...all I can say is it's a mess and it's getting hard day by day.... surviving a day alone is an achievement for me recently.... I know I made the wrong decisions...I made mistakes and I fell into those mistakes soo deeply that...I can't even see a way to get out back.... People hurt you to death...then pretend like nothing is wrong.... people make you feel everything then someday...you are nothing to them... suddenly they start acting weird and all....they leave you alone....they make you feel alone... They will be smiling and having fun around you like nothing has affected them... it hurts...it hurts... I regret all my choices.... depending on people is all the wrong one could do to themselves and I feel helpless and alone. After investing my everything all I get is.... loneliness                                        ...

I know...I know this is a late late post.......but yeah life is being it's rough and tough phase right now. This year Diwali has been a bit special and kind of close to my heart. I had to celebrate on my own this year and I wanted to decorate my room so much that it did not happen as I was very broke this year😂😂... However, I managed to get a diya and draped my mom's saree, did all the drama, and took pictures with that one diya...I felt happy, indeed it was special ❤️. And the day after that, my classmates decided to celebrate Diwali at a friend's place...we had fun and a kind of anxiety with all the crackers being thrown here and there. I don't know if I'll be able to celebrate like this again, but yeah... I'm grateful for the things that happened to me this year. I had a happy Diwali ❤️ 🎇🪔.                                                 -Mysterygirl 

Hmmm...hi to myself maybe... I don't know but there is so much to write and say... so let me start by saying hi to myself...coz I miss myself and the energy or the vibe of old me.....I know it is a constant change, but I don't know what I'm even becoming...hope I feel safe and happy soon, of course, I'm happy but that constant feeling of getting sad over things I have a reason for that...I don't want to get affected by others..why is there this constant push and pull of emotions in my life and why do people affect me... maybe it is me who gives that importance to others and gets affected. for instance, I wish, I wish I was a stone and just live my life stably.                                                                                   ...

Recently I visited the passport office, obviously for my passport verification. I was slut shamed by the superintendent something officer there, so the thing was, I was wearing a Kurti that was sleeveless with a scarf..but still, she said all the mean things she could...that it's because of people like me that rapes happen, its people like me that provoke boys and let them follow us and all....and cry in the end when things happen. i don't know how a boy takes it but as a female, you know it can be traumatizing, it was abuse I say. first of all that day morning I was wearing a saree for a college event kind of thing, so my instinct involuntarily chooses a comfortable dress, maybe it was my mistake to wear such kind of dress, but still, that doesn't gives her any kind of right to say all that shit to me, just because she a position or power to handle it...and later when I came out and had to fill a feedback form, there was an option /rating sort of thing for her in that form...

 I like how much of a private person I am and it's funny How people are curious about my life 😂🤭🤷🏻‍♀️ #JustFeelingMySupremacy #ItIsMyWorldAndPeopleAreLivingInIt😅 #YesIamStillAPrivatePerson #Ain'tGonnaRevealAnythingPersonal🏃🏻‍♀️                                                                                                              -Mystery girl