Mystery Girl's Diaries

Maybe these are called over expectations and they sound too much for other I never wanted to work under others....like, I don't want to do a job......... I always wanted to do something creative which give me satisfaction in living my life...I want to explore, I want to start something new........I always wanted to do something different.... Where I can use my brain for my things and where I can work hard for my thoughts..... Huh!   I am a student now... Thinking about all these things may not help me in any way... Because my thoughts and my career are completely different from each other... I hope I could use both of them...... I don't want a common daily life like ....first studies, then a job, then marriage within one year or two, then family....aaargh........ never...I don't want that... May I get the power to live my life like I wanted to... I want to live my life to the fullest........but iam afraid that what if I end up doing nothing!?.     ...

Have you ever had a moment in your life where everything going around you seemed fake and everyone around you made you feel like they are faking themselves? I think now I am in that moment..... Where I can sense everyone around me are actually faking their actions according to their needs..... being around those people made me question myself "do I am also faking??" ... The thing is I am neutral... Where I can't react as neither real nor fake.. because "I am Poor" financially!, according to those fakes....but I guess I am having a much meaning full life than they...this not judging them, this what I can clearly watch everyday.  These fake things really make me feel guilty about myself because I also know their true faces. One thing that I learnt is People only remember you according to their needs or your financial status... I hope people don't fall in the trap of those fake people. Just watch their performance and enjoy.                 ...

  i really have so much to talk about people because what i thought and experienced as a kid and what  is all now is completely different..........as i am growing i am getting to know a lot and lot of things which are really surprising, disappointing , stupid and foolish sometimes........may be it is common..i think every one goes through this phase...... but mind gets every exited when i get to know some thing specially when its a new or first time i get to know.... ofcourse in the end i have to accept that but after knowing somethings that are indigestible neither you could react nor you could make any changes all you have to do is wait and watch thing even after knowing that is a bad or worst thing ,that is going in front of your eyes.........iam not regarding to some in my life that i could remember, but there was one situation that was really worst.....i regret why did i get to know such thing...it really disturbed my inner peace and also  made me realize that you ca...

Today at this moment I am just feeling like I had the most stupidest argument in my life..... It was meaningless..... Just perfectly stupid........ I am not going to have that kind of stupidity in my life again intentionally..... I thought to make understand something to a person.... But it was really really stupid.... Soo lame one...... I am very proud that I don't have any thing like that in my personal life.... I argued for someone... Who was insane....... Iam really proud of my self that iam not atleast that stupid.... Thank god..... I don't want any kind of stupidity in my life....... Hugh... I am exhausted, drained....... Aaaah wtf... Okay it's going late.... Bye                                                                     -Mystery girl

Being born and growing up in a judgemental society has influenced me a lot... especially because people around me are naive and place where I live...people are always interested in other's lives .....they care about what you are doing and what you are going to do..but no one cares about how you are doing.....then why do they are so much interested in others lives....if you are reading this on by mistake or on purpose...please don't judge other's easily if you are doing nothing to change their life...if are not helping or going to help them then please stay away they are sailing their own boat don't make holes or any other things to them you don't know how much they are struggling. it is always easy to judge others.... it's like entertainment for some people...don't know especially these Indian aunties..patha nai chugli baazi karke inko kya miltha... it's not like I hate them..but why do they do that which is useless.....why are they so much interested in...

money--- umm...i guess I can write a long essay on this...but I choose not to....haha money- Maybe it's a  piece of paper, which has more value than humans sometimes... I saw people are only valued when they have that piece of shit with them.. they won't admit it.they may have their own  explanation. of course, everyone needs money to survive in this money influenced society...... yes, I have so much hate towards people because of it....well again I remind myself I am no one to judge them... but some things that happened to us keep will remind us what we went through... I only pray for them that god makes them realise the value of people than that..however, they can't change what happened..at least they  help themselves. those whose eyes have been closed with their money. well, I have to thank people who showed the power of that paper and made me learn a lot, since when I was a kid.  'someday when money on this earth completely disappears, then I wanna see what they ...

thappad-- the best movie that I have watched in recent times maybe I connected mostly because I saw so many women who experienced that kind of lifestyle..... I loved the whole movie...heroin's character, everything. that scene when her husband slaps her, no one cares about that, everyone takes it easy. what if in the same situation wife slaps her husband.....people will be ready to judge her...this is where gender discrimination  appears....women are human beings too they too have self-respect... after that scene, everyone tries to convince her. she says that she cannot pretend now. just wow!! I just loved her attitude. sadly we live in a society where women fight for their own rights. people more than understanding and supporting women they criticize women.huh!!  I wish every man could watch that movie and learn or at least understand something from that about women. I hope every woman lives her life as she wants to without compromising herself for which they aren't even appr...