Mystery Girl's Diaries

CHANGE. Well, recently I have been to my HOME, I don't know if this is a condition but when I travel I think it's not even thinking it's kind of analysis if I can say  I just slipped my brain to 5 years back this time..all those times in 2018 I have gone through, and suddenly   I'm here in 2024 in 5th year...How the times have changed.Once upon I was scared to travel alone and now I want to travel alone somewhere now... How impulsive and aggressive I used to be in those years, so many things have changed, I used to be super annoyed by people, and I still get annoyed by people but that doesn't bother me like it used to be... Maybe it's that phase of life where you have to realize that people and nothing changes, irrespective of your likes and dislikes...still we are lucky enough to avoid certain things and people whom we don't like...we have to feel lucky for that, at least we have that option in our hands. What I feel proud of myself for is I have never forc...

{Oct 26} I am literally watching this 8 season's last episode laughing, getting emotional, and all... I don't know what I am going to do with my life after this series ends? This series had everything that I needed. {Oct 03} I have completed this series today... What should I do with my life now... This "friends" is better than the few I have in reality... This series has my heart, This series made me laugh at the lamest jokes, I don't know that we can cry watching a comedy series that too with comedy punch lines in it...I mean it was emotional at times...  well, it has a whole life in it... It was worth all the hype it has, you can imagine that people are relating and vibing to the same series that was released in 2001...it was the year that I was born. This is going to be my go-to series and it is a part of my life from now on that's it.

 Crying has always been a part of my life... you can call me sensitive or crybaby or whatever. coz even I thought, that I was sensitive, I blamed myself for a few years and you know as I went through a phase where all I did was cry...well it was bad and I will be bad when I lose control. and here I am stopped blaming myself and yeah this is the way I am. I am sensitive, I am emtotioanl. I get deeply connected to things..there was a time when I cried because some kids plucked the plant that I planted. Everyone has different coping mechanisms for the things that happen in their everyday lives, maybe crying is my way of coping with things. and because of "Me" feeling too much for things or emotionally getting connected to things, I can understand things in a different way, maybe because of that, I can write whatever I'm writing here. So embracing ourselves, the way we are is necessary once in a while but don't encourage yourself in such a way that bothers others. and I s...

Yeah, what I meant to say is it is what it is accept it the way it is and just move on. No matter how much you try, no matter how much you want some things are just not meant for us ..people need to realize accept and move on. No matter how much you fantasize about it in your head, some things are just not meant for us. Some people never change. Some people never want you no matter how hard your efforts are. No matter how much you try to fit in, some places are not meant for you. On the other hand, some things happen just effortlessly, you don't have to force yourself. You don't have to overexplain yourself, some people just get you. Some places are just meant for you, where everything just feels right. What I say is, whatever the situation may be, there is a time where people have to realize things and just accept the things the way they are. There are people who succeed after years of trying, which is really great, but there are also people who give up and find their thing af...

 yeayyy.....finally, I have manifested a trip.....this year I desperately wished for a trip on the new year and even on my birthday too... I went on a trip... which was a sudden plan actually, I never thought that it would actually work out..but yeah everything was in our favor and we had a great tour... Of course, so many bad things did happen in between... I mean not bad but the kind of things that made us panic... even before we started, we didn't find a vehicle, the one we thought was not worked out..then the car was all set, just after we started vehicle suddenly stopped, don't know why but I didn't have any expectations or plans. my brain was completely blank, neither with positive nor negative thoughts. however, it started working again and we started again. then, we got lost in an unknown route, that route was terrible and terrific it was kind of a thriller for me, and trust me that route in the dense forest at midnight was worth a horror film, and you know what aft...

 I want a forever. I am sorry, but I want nothing less. I want someone who will stay. I want to grow old with someone, sharing every day, sharing the little things. And yes, I also want to have the same excitement and passion, even on our last day on earth. So you are not allowed to get bored of me or anything that I do. When I smile at you, it should not be "I have seen that smile a million times." No, I want to see that longing in your eyes that you too want to join me in a smile. I am a crazy person. I do the silliest of things. And I want you to react to them, the same way. If you scream at me, scream forever. If you throw a pillow at me for taunting you, throw the pillow forever. If you find me cute when I kiss your forehead, then give me the same warm look forever. Are you getting me? I want everything to last, forever, the same way. I don’t want the love to fizzle out. I don’t want the intensity to lose steam with years. I don’t want you to ever get bored of me or my t...

  “are goodbyes ever easy?” . “no, they are not supposed to be.” . “i’ll miss you. i suppose, i’m myself the most when i am with you, you know?” . “it’s okay.” . that was my last conversation with him. letting go is probably the most difficult thing to do. deep down, all you want is to hug that person tightly and tell them to stay, but you smile and wish them luck instead. it’s not easy for you to make bonds and get close to people. you get attached too quickly, and then you try to hold on to them, for as long as you can. with them, you feel like yourself. you share the same kind of taste in music and you find comfort in each other’s presence. you don’t smile the same way, with anyone else. you have so many memories together, and all you want is to run back to that familiar feeling. life is never constant. people come and go. it haunts us when people leave, but we can carry only so much hurt and heartbreak in our palms, and we eventually heal. we start over and give new definitions...