Mystery Girl's Diaries

sometimes I really don't understand what's going with me. why did I choose this course? do I am loving this? of course, I love learning new things, I love those labs but, I don't like that faculty at all....... they bring out the stress in me, they act like demons....its going to be my third year but still it feels like the first day, seriously I never loved being in class with that faculty...they doesn't even know basic student psychology, past 2 years were felt like hell. the way they convey anything or the way they speak in classes is disgusting. basically, this is a  tough course with whole chemistry and drugs, in that these people are aarrgh! . I think no one in the class loves to listen to a class wholeheartedly. a lecturer should make the subject sound interesting...these people give less knowledge and Moore stress. compared to first-year these years were better because we got used to their "egoistic and don't know how to describe aah.... talks.  I reall...

 ummm.................as a kid and even till before leaving the house for studies and even until my first year I believed that boys life is more comfortable than living as a girl I felt that, they are easy-going. even still I feel that in some conditions living as a boy is faar better than living as a girl. what I thought was boys are pure souls they don't hold on to grudges or resent anyone. I thought their friendship is better than girls, I mean friendship among boys!. then I came to see and hear the worst stories. then I realized being in this generation I was soo dumb thinking like that. we are after all human beings. they too have feelings, they do overthink and some are sensitive too but being born as a male has to act as a strong person because that's how society wants a 'MALE' to be. I feel sorry for them...but there comes change someday.......people are trying to be a little accepting these days, which makes people live as they are. as I say every time, in the ...

  I always wanted to be a part of an NGO , I hope one day I will.. But these days after so watching many people around me being depressed for nothing... Mostly for small or no reason..... Don't know why I feel like helping them. Iam Willing to help actually but how? . I want to talk to them , I want to interact with those depressed people because that's not a thing to live with, they don't have to stress over small things which are not worth at all. Don't know who are reading this if you have an idea please do share. we are here to help each other in this short life on this earth. Let's help who are in need of mental and moral support. Those people don't need any kind of treatment they just need some kind words. 

I love nights...late nights make me think, make me write, it might be good or bad I love that calm nights with only my thoughts and "ME" So now what I am is "You" or "Yourself" is what that matters the most at the end of the... that's not meant to be selfish or hurt other's..but don't let others hurt you....you have to fill yourself with you- self love...That is how we are going to survive on this earth between this people around us. We can't live pleasing people around us, maybe we can! But for some time, in the what's that matter is your happiness and your satisfaction.  Don't  let this situations, feelings, emotions or people control your live over you. Love yourself atleast that makes you happy and gives a satisfaction when nothing is left with you, you are going to have yourself. Again this doesn't mean to become self obsessive but be your own fan who accepts you the way you are for every thing you are now and every thing y...

 Don't know why after reading some books recently I got these lines stucked in my head Life is beyond your thoughts Life is beyond your expectations Life is more than what you know and what you think It is eternal..just explore.

 This was the thing I was trying to learn from soo many days how to remain calm in some kind of situations, though It was tough and may be I can't master it but I guess I have changed the way i think... I started managing myself toward every action and every thought of mine....well there are so many things that helped me which include specially this lockdown period, the online course that I did "introduction to psychology" , each and every novel that I read till now and ofcourse k-drams and also tonnes of quotes that i read. generally every reader or writer will suggest u to read books they  can change you well that I understood now,  books cannot change you entirely but they can help to change way of thinking and your perspective...………….anndd finally remaining clam doesn't mean to remain silent but think wisely don't overthink or overreact to situations...  firstly accept the situation try to agree with that (not everything) then think reasons for that why did t...

 Don't know why but in the middle of this night I just wanna write something.... Telugu hah! "Jeevitham lo Brathakadam kosam dabbulu sampadinchadam veru , dabbunte ne Jeevitham anukovadam veru".....  ofcourse money is important but money is not every thing right?, there are also many things beyond money in life. I just wanna questions again and again, why are you soo much attracted to Money or fond of money which doesn't even lasts with you till the end, why people choose money over people. don't they feel anything about them self (who are after money) , do they think people don't even notice, do they ever think or question themselves how stupid they are being.  shhh!!! my brain is really going crazy becoz of those kind of people and their stupid behavior around me. i wish they could realize that someone is watching them and disgusting they are making people around them.                          ...